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Moved (:

2009-07-22T20:38:00.001+08:00

Moved back to hwee-ified.com (:

Laughter and smiles (:

2009-07-21T20:45:00.004+08:00

THIS WOULD BE A SHORT POST. Reason being :

1. I'm frustrated that I can't continue watching my korean drama "I am Sam".

2. I've not finished doing my computing practical

3. I want to continue to watch more Big Bang videos !

Anyways, to round it all up, today was surprisingly fun.

The lessons in the morning totally killed me so I guess they ain't part of the reason. During those lessons, I was practically using up all my energy to keep myself awake and in the end leaving none for absorbing of knowledge. However, I had to say I was in a good mood because yesterday night, I watched Big Bang videos ! And wait, don't be mistaken. Not that PHYSICS stuff. It's the korean male group, Big Bang I'm talking about ! xD

Well, miraculously, I managed to survive till the end of the day with 2 hours of break despite the LONG day. Tomorrow is going to be a long day too . Actually, I should already be used to it. Computing ASP was pretty hilarious thanks to ChenHong and Ibrahim. I guess they have found out the importance of studying and stayed back late to study. Quite shocked actually and started reprimanding myself for being such a bad example THOUGH A levels is just round the corner.

Anyways, what happened was this. Jolene dragged Bra and CH down to the canteen to be her bodyguards. Somehow, fate brought us together so we went down to grab some food. On the way down, Jolene was trying to assign tasks to both of them on who take on the role of a bodyguard and the latter, an entertainer. Bra for some reason was really serious into this matter and demanded to be a bodyguard and even slandered CH for being short so he didn't bore the basic qualities. Jolene was convinced and gave him that job.

In the canteen, we walked pass the drinks store and was looking for food in the Malay stall. Then Bra started cracking up. "Why is the nuggets so big? " He questioned playfully. Curious, I peered over . And you know what he was refering to ? The potato pies. Apparently, the guy did not put the signs properly so now "nuggets" sign is now pointed to potato pies. In addition, Bra did not stop there. He carried on and even ASKED the guy . It was so funny. The guy was trying to explain himself. So Bra joked with the guy "So it's 30 cents then ? " LOL. The price of a potato pie was $1.20. What a huge difference.

When we were leaving, Jolene wanted to see if the potato pie was still warm so she reached out and touched the pie. The guy mistook it and joked with Jolene "Girl arh. You touching the pie or touching his hand? " . LOL. It was seriously funny. Jolene was trying to explain herself . Bra didn't hear it and we explained to him. He was so proud of himself for the rest of the time.

Then we went back up. On the way, we arrived at the staircase leading us to the computer labs. Bra and CH started illustrating to us what happened that day when they accidentally prank the others. They were just released from lessons and it was a break so they went to the canteen. Then, Bra pulled the shutters down to half because he wanted to tease his friend. And so his friend limbo-ed pass. After that his friend asked why he didn't pull it all down. Bra retorted that nobody would do that. Just then, CH came and pulled it all down. LOL .

But the point wasn't this. The main point was that at that time, the bell rang and there were people coming down for break and they came across this staircase with shutters down. One girl was shocked and even exclaimed out loud "What if it's locked ?" Bra and his friends were trying to hide their smiles. LOL . If it was me, I would have just laughed out loud.

Following that, we started laughing and went back upstairs. They did the same thing again, pulled down the shutters. This time it was more hilarious. We just came out of that entrance and then there was this guy who wanted to go down from the staircase. He realised it was locked so he came back up and walked the other way. We started laughing really hard because it was really weird if that guy had thought about it. If it was locked, how could we possibly come up by that way ? LOL . Oh well, we shall just take it that he was tired and wasn't in the right mind to think .

Well, that's what happened in school that brightened my day. LOL . Thinking about it would still bring a smile to my lips. Anyways, the next good thing is that I've got my backup! Yupp, so I'll be moving soon when I've settled everything. Unless you have not realised, both hwee-ified.com and hwee-ified.blogspot.com points to here. So yeah, pretty soon it won't after I direct it to my new habitat. LOL . Habitat -.- I think I'm losing my mind.

Lastly, some songs to share ! :D Just listen to them yeah, it's really good and I guarantee that it won't waste your time (: Big Bang rocks !

All their songs are really good especially if you like hiphop (: They have a total of around 27 awards (credits to wiki) to their names! And the point is, every member is filled with talent and not looks only ! (: Love their style totally and how could you not love them ? They are soooo cute :P Especially TOP ~ xP G-Dragon ~ SeungRi ~ TaeYang ~ DaeSung ~ OOPS. I named them all . LOL .

Big Bang - Sunset Glow

Big Bang - Haru Haru

Big Bang - Lies

Big Bang - My Heaven

Non-stop fun :D

2009-07-19T11:32:00.009+08:00

Yawn ~ I just woke up and here I am . The only reason why I'm doing this is that I know I won't do it if I don't do it now. Seriously, I'll be too overwhelmed by other tasks hence blogging is the first time I must do ! Besides, I've not blogged for several days, if I don't do it soon, I'm afraid my memory would fail me ): So here goes 4 days of blogging :D

Firstly, lets start off with the overdue pictures ><

I remembered on 7th July, which was on Tuesday, I was bewildered by how messy my drawer was. I really couldn't believe it. I guess I should kick the bad habit of just dumping everything I see into the drawer without sorting them out at all.

After that, I decided it's time to make it neater ! It's too messy for good. I'm a girl ! Have to be neat ! Gosh, sterotyping again but too bad, the world has already been influenced and that includes me. A girl has to be neat. Fine, I've cleaned and sorted everything out. I remembered my mum was nagging at me and asking me what's the point of giving me containers when it will still turn out so messy. All I could do was to return a sheepish smile :P

Oh well, there. Evidence that it's all neat now :D But, the point was, only one drawer out of so many others is neat. LOL . So there's like *looks around my room* Okay never mind. I'm living in a dumpsite. I admit -.- And it's all my doing.

Let's go on to something more refreshing shall we :X

The next day, on Wednesday was photo taking for our class ! It's a totally NEW experience. Let me elaborate on what I meant by that. Normally, we would stand on benches with the shorter ones at the bottom and the taller ones at the back. But this time, it was different. Totally not what we have expected. This time, we stood at the first floor, without any benches, none ! And the photographer took our picture from the top.

This new way of taking pictures totally blew us off. Most of us were lost and didn't really know what to do. We just followed the photographer's instructions blindly hopefully it will turn out fine. Anyways, some pictures I took while the others were having their pictures taken. Oh wait, I haven't explain some stuff. So after taking the class photo, we had to split ourselves up into groups of five and take a picture each separately. Thanks to Jolene's idea, the girls adopted a Bollywood style. Shall scan it and show you when we get the picture.

For Muthu, CheeWee and Husnain, they adopted the Buddhist way of taking. If you know what I mean, yeah ( below)

They were busy hurrying me up because their legs were tired for staying at the same pose. I guess the only one who was fine was Husnain while the others had to remain in a squatting position or a weird posture.

Candid pictures of the rest ~

Weiqin, finally agreeing to take a picture :D

Jennifer who still thinks she ain't in her best form to take a picture.

Jolene, who didn't had time to escape my camera ! :P

And, the best photo of the year

*drumrolls*

CAUGHT RED-HANDED snogging at the side, RenZhi and MingSheng :XX

Now, fast foward to last Friday.

I woke up really early, though on Friday school was going to start late. And hence, what's the SPECIAL occasion ? And so, I dragged my heavy feet and managed to reach Chong Pang with my half open eyes. Met Jolene at the bakery and got a cake that really appealed to me :X Wanted to buy a strawberry one but oh well, there weren't any.

And so, Jolene and I hurried to school while keeping tabs on the birthday girl. Finally reached school safely. We stored the cake with the store auntie and decided to carry on with the day without any signs that we bought the cake. I mean of course, since it was meant as a surprise. There must not be any hiccups like the previous surprises. Jolene's one was the most messed up last year. I mean, there were so many people apologizing to her because they couldn't go when she was NOT SUPPOSED TO KNOW that we are going to her house to surprise her -.- Ahh ! Forget it .

Lessons were as per normal except we copied 209's idea of singing a birthday song for Jeannette for every lesson. Even 209 joined in during computing lesson. It was so hilarious :X Jolene then went off during the break to find Mr Ho. Well, to make the surprise a success, we needed his help desperately. He finally agreed after saying that we are mean ! How can we be mean when we planned so much :P

During the long break, we went to the container classroom to study and did our homework. And from there, Jolene started being random and Jeannette was totally puzzled over her actions. She was trying to get something out of me but all I replied was a blank look and " I have no idea too " . Guess I managed to make her believe that it was Jolene who was a little .. weird and nothing was wrong.

Jolene tried her best to make Jeannette believe that we did not do anything for her. She suddenly said "Jeannette, I'm really sorry. We should get you a cake but .. we have to finish this piece of homework and hand it in. I'm really sorry. " Jeannette replied saying that it was okay. At that time, I was so worried that the cover has blown off because Jolene was SO exaggerating but luckily she didn't doubt at all .

Thank god. If it was me, I would have guessed it already. Did I mention this before ? I remembered during Secondary 4 I think, it was pretty hilarious actually. In the morning, I went to the washroom and then my friend from the other class wished me Happy Birthday. So I was quite surprised that they knew and then they added on "Nice cake" . I was like "hahaha" . And so, I finally found out what Joyce they all were doing . So when I went to class I had the "I have no idea what's going on" face and pretended to be surprised. In the end I told them about everything that happened in the washroom. LOL . It was pretty funny. But oh well, thanks for the effort :D I still love surprises ! :P

Back to the story, Jeannette proceeded to meet Mr Ho after that. Then everyone started to carry out the plan. We took the cake from the auntie and gathered everyone. Went up the stairs and saw Mr Ho still talking to Jeannette. Sang the Happy Birthday song and we just realised she was crying. Jolene and I started accusing Mr Ho . LOL . "What did you do to Jeannette ! " . LOL . I guess it was pretty chaotic. The class started to blame Mr Ho. Poor teacher :X Had to help us and then got this treatment but we were just joking yeah :P

And here are the pictures ~ :D

We ended the celebration with rushing for Physics ASP. LOL . We were so late for goodness sake :P

After school, I hurried home to change and shower. Had a change of clothes and then went out again to meet up with Joyce, JiaYing, Sharine and Yuan Xi.

It's been such a LONG time since I've seen them ><>

Then we bought KFC and managed to squeeze it into YuanXi's and Joyce's bag so we could have our dinner in the theatre :PP Sharine and YuanXi on the other hand bought popcorn. To say the truth, I wasn't really a Harry Potter movies fan though I was a fan of the book . But when I reflected, actually I've read all the books and watched all the movies. LOL . I didn't know. But somehow, people would drag me to watch them . So yeah, somehow I managed to watch all .

We entered the movies late but GV was known for their 20 minutes of commercial. So we settled down and started eating our food. It was a funny scene as Joyce and I were trying to find which banditto had vegetables. All 3 of us bought banditto meal but only one have vegetables which was mine. The reason why theirs didn't have was that the vegetables would dirty their clothes. I accepted that reason for JiaYing and started nagging at Joyce for not eating her greens. Then Joyce wanted to defend herself by using Ying's excuse. COME ON! How long have I known you . LOL. You've never ate any greens and even NOT EAT nasi lemak because it's green in colour. LOL .

When Jiaying was saying that it might dirty her top, I cracked that that was why I brought a napkin with me :X My scarf . LOL :PP They were obviously lamed by me. Oh well -.- We started to watch the movie. Now, the time for hwee's movie review of Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince . For those who have not watched the movie and is interested in catching it in the theatres, please skip the following paragraphs :D

As expected of Harry Potter, the introduction was the best. How they managed to link the "real" world and the magical world together was simply fantastic. How they made use of the clouds to create that feeling that we have arrived in the magical world fascinated me everytime. In this movie, it was a little different from the previous ones because this time, it wasn't totally about fighting against the dark lord. Instead, there were more of romance intertwined. More than half of the show, the audience(including me) were laughing at how they potrayed the romance in the story perfectly. The jealousy between the characters especially Hermione towards Ron and his fling was the climax of the comedic scene.

Not forgetting the most anticipated Qudditch scenes that never fails to amaze all of us. The thrill made us feel like we were one of the spectators. And of course Ron's acting never fails to make us laugh especially the part when he thought Harry used the Felix Felicitus, Pool of Living Gold or in other words called the lucky potion on him. Of course it wasn't true but he proved us opposite when he displayed his potential in the Quidditch match and was ruled the hero or the MVP for the match. And that's how his fling started.

But what really disappointed me was the fighting against the dark lord. No doubt, the death eaters really intrigued me. The ending was really depressing as most of the storyline from the book was cut off. Oh, not forgetting that Malfoy's acting was really good and Luna never fails to crack me up with her unique style of dressing.

Overall, the movie is worth a watch but do not expect too much for the fighting scenes but instead be refreshed by the extra hilarious scenes of romance and jealousy :D

Okay, end of review. Now I shall continue of what happened while we were watching the movie. Although we were sitting at the last row, I bet we disturbed the others greatly :X LOL . Joyce and Jiaying had so much comments ! At first they were debating who was hotter, Harry Potter or Malfoy. Of course it was Malfoy ! :X Joyce supported Harry Potter because Malfoy belonged to the dark side. Near the ending when Dumbledore died, Sharine and Joyce were mourning over his death -.- Sharine suddenly grabbed my hand and started sighing. On the other side, Joyce suddenly laid her head on my shoulder, unable to contain her sadness. LOL. I shut them both up with a "this is just a show".

After the show, we started chatting about how Joyce was trying to prove LingLan and me wrong that Dumbledore is not dead and even talked about the website. But too bad, the author of the book declared that he was dead and the website closed down.

Walked around northpoint after that and took some pictures ! :D

The card that Joyce drew ! xD We were exclaiming at how environment friendly she was :X LOL.

In case you have no idea what I meant, it was made of a foolscap cardboard. Nevertheless, it was really nice :D

Sharine, Jiaying and me ! Joyce was puzzled by why I was the one holding the card. Then in unison, all of us said "Because she's(I'm) in the middle !" -.- LOL . She's so cute sometimes :X

All of the girls without YuanXi ! LOL. He volunteered to take the picture >< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_KdfseifIXNY/SmKuQhBS9sI/AAAAAAAAEYo/zp85zUzo22A/s1600-h/170720092787.jpg">

SHARINE ! :D

YuanXi at the side, who ran to hide when I whipped out my camera x.x

Joyce who couldn't escape ! :X

YuanXi, who PRETENDED that he was looking at something else -.- And look at how happy Joyce is . LOL . She's so cute :XX

Ending off with birthday wishes :D

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JEANNETTE !

Stay cheerful and innocent :P

love ya :D

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY YING ~!!

Stay cute yeah :P Stop mapling so much . LOL .

And gratz about your .. ahem :X hehehe !

LOVE YA LOTS ! xDD

TOP is .. LOVE :P

2009-07-15T19:46:00.006+08:00

It's SO difficult to survive with a blog. Everyday I'm having this feeling of whether I will get my backup soon . And till I've settled, it feels weird to type here too. So well, I'm still pondering and pondering. All the posts are getting accumulated in my HEAD and I don't think I will remember them all if I don't start typing soon. But right now, I only want to type about my LATEST addiction ! :P So addicted to ..

BIG BANG, TOP ! :X TOP is LOVE ! Actually, I was actually just surfing through the web, watching videos as usual. Then I started watching Dance Battle 2009. Tadah, I saw TaeYang and SeungRi's performance. Thought they were really good and I was really outdated. I had absolutely NO idea that they were from BigBang because the shallow old me only knew that there's a member called G-Dragon in there. The other members were M.I.A to me.

But till then, I wasn't really THAT fascinated by them yet. Thought they were pretty good and I continued watching MKMF 2008. Saw the entire show. The part that really intrigued me was of course Big Bang. Thought that the collaboration was really good and I love Lee Hyori ! She's so funny and all. Anyways, YES. Like the other Big Bang fans, I was shocked by the kiss between Hyori and TOP. Actually it wasn't a kiss, but just a quick peck on the lips. Well, I read the comments below and saw people talking about Family Outing.

Curious me went to check it out and it was the part where TOP was featured as a guest appearance and Hyori was present too. Seriously, he's so cute and funny. It must be hard for him to surpress himself because he has to keep to his "Charismatic" look. But deep inside, he's really hilarious and loves to goof around. Anyways, those that are still puzzled over who I'm talking about, below is the guy's profile ! xP

TOP

Profile

Position: Rapper / Beat Boxer

Real Name: Choi Seung Hyun (최승현)

Stage Names: Tempo, T.O.P

Date of Birth: November 4,1987

Height: 181 cm

Weight: 65 kg

Blood Type: B

Education: Seoul Art College (Majoring in Musical), Dangook University in Theater & Film ( starting 2008 )

Skills: Rapping, Beat Boxing, Lyrics Making

Debut: BIG BANG

Hobbies: Reading and Swimming

Likes: Theatrical Performances, Musicals, and Fashion Designing

Family Members: Parents & Older Sis

Personality: He speaks well and is extremely stubborn. He likes to be the leader of things and speaks his mind. Shy and he thinks he’s cute.

Musician He Admires: Usher, Omarion, Jay-Z, B2K

Pendent: A hand holding a megaphone with a Superman style diamond behind it meaning “to inspire people with his voice and become big”

credits: BigBangKorean.wordpress

Photos Spamming ! :DD

Okay. Enough of spamming :P those that are interested, I recommend you guys to watch Intimate Note and Family Outing (:

Time for homework ! :X

Friends, they can't be replaced

2009-07-09T20:47:00.003+08:00

Seems like chatting with a mature person can make you think more. Well well, thanks to MingSheng I've realized and understood a lot of stuff in the past few hours. Reflecting on everything that I've done, others have and the surroundings, I've learnt many things.

I've realised that I'm really what they've said. A pampered kid, not family-wise though. I've been pampered from young, by my friends. Always not being satisfied and all, but it seems that the insensitive one was me all along. Everyone was there, beside me to help me when I fall, I was the selfish one, not wanting to accept any help from others. I thought that I was the victim, no one wants to be there for me. I thought I was calling out yet no one was there.

I was wrong. I've realised that. I hope it's not too late yet. My friends were always the one who didn't give up, always paying attention to what I say. Because I kept it all in my heart, didn't want to find someone to talk to. When I finally found a source to let it all out, which was blogger, they paid attention to what I posted though I didn't realize in the start. Everything I said, even if they didn't say anything, it meant something to them.

For them, I'm grateful. At least someone hears me. I was the one who didn't realize all along. Insensitive I was, never wanting to trust anyone. Bottling it all up though they have pleaded so much to confide in them. I've really reflected. I won't be so selfish anymore. I bet they felt that I weren't treating them as real friends. It wasn't them all along, it was me.

I apologize for all I've done. They were the ones who accepted me for who I was. They tried to understand all my actions and thoughts even though once and once again I've hurt them. For all that I've done in the past, those mistakes that I can't undo. I won't do them again. Thanks people . I love all of you. You know it, even if I don't say.

That's what makes you special in my life (:

Days without my blog

2009-07-07T19:43:00.004+08:00

Okay. I shall clarify once and for all what happened to my blog. Quite a number has been asking me what's wrong and well well. I've received a notice that my blog has abusive content and hence they've decided to suspend it. Right now they are backing up all my stuff and yeah. I will still move back but it'll take some time. So hang on okay (:

Seriously, when my blog is gone then I realised I really miss it. DARN ! I want my blog back! For now, I doubt anyone knows of this place except Jas ? LOL. I was shocked when I saw her comment but oh well, we have telepathy :X Anyways, I'll just use this temporary till my current one is up and going. By then, I'll update all the posts I have here there. So yupp ! :D Let's start with my long awaited post :D

It has been a long time since my family went out together. I remembered on Saturday night, my dad shocked me with the question "Hey. Wana go sing K? " I was like HUH O.O I guess he was really bored at home. It's always sleeping and watching tv. Nothing else to do at all. I suggested Transformers 2 but my brother watched it before already. So in the end we called off the plans after being unable to decide on something.

On Sunday night, we had Thai cuisine at LemonGrass Thai Restaurant ! Suddenly I'm falling in love with it :PP I love the PINEAPPLE RICE. I think I can have it for days straight without feeling bored of it at all =x

Before eating ~

I had my first taste of Tom Yam soup. I guess it wasn't that bad afterall . LOL . Oh well :X Heh ~ Anyways on our plates we had, PINEAPPLE RICE. That's a must. But I have to say I was quite disappointed with it as it wasn't as fragrant as other restaurants. However the other dishes are a MUST HAVE. It's so delicious. Gosh, I feel hungry while I type this out :PP

Pandan leaves chicken was not bad especially good with the sauce. My family members were busy sipping the Tom Yum soup away. They even fought over mine. LOL . This shows how good it was. Kang Kong Sambal. AHH ! I'm so falling in love with it. It rocks. I LOVE THIS DISH :X Hot plate beancurd. I think I'm a beancurd fan. No matter how you cook it, I love it. Steam, grill, fry, whatever ! I LOVE THEM :X I ate a lot of it. Heh. Thai honey chicken was the best of all. The feeling you have when you sink your teeth in is awesome. The smell of the honey from the chicken is totally .. Ahhh -.- I'm swallowing my saliva as I imagine the taste in my mouth :PP

After eating, PLATES ARE EMPTY ! Had such a sumptuous meal.

After that we had dessert at Häagen-Dazs. I ordered Brownie Explosion sharing it with my mum. My dad and brother shared Macademia nut and Vanilla ice cream.

AHH . It looks so good right. I'm already missing it while looking at the picture above while I type. Anyways, the waiter was really hilarious. My brother and I were debating if he was Singaporean. My guess was a NO. He had the american accent and I firmly believed that he was from the Philippines. Anyways he was asking for our feedback and suggested that maybe the ice cream should be of a bigger scoop. LOL . We were laughing like mad. Gosh :P

It was a great night out. Been long since I've had so much fun. When I was on the car back home, my dad said "hwee, next sunday is kbox session" My brother and I started laughing. By the way, I'm really addicted to the game Lemonade Tycoon. I used to play it like crazy on the computer. Now it's available on Ipod touch and I'm always playing it every second. Blehs :X

Over the weekends, I've also caught up with the latest chapter of Naruto which meant I've read 200 chapters straight :P Gosh . I wonder why I didn't read it last time. I even complained that it wasn't good. Sorry ! I know I'm wrong. LOL :PP It's so nice. The plot is amazing and I can't wait for the next chapter of Naruto, Bleach and Fullmetal Alchemist! I think I'm going crazy. My tastes for manga is a little off. I'm starting to like Shounen better than Shoujo. Now, is that a good point ? :X Seems like I prefer fighting mangas better than romance ones. Whee ~

School was great today. Couldn't really wake up in the morning because it was such a good night sleep. Ahh. I didn't want to leave my bed at all. I was pratically fighting with myself. In the end I crawled out of my bed reluctantly. The thought of faking an illness even crossed my mind ><

YJ implemented a fixed seating plan during lessons and I'm stuck with Jennifer. She can't choose ! :X We've been chatting like crazy. She prefers the seating arrangement now because it's more systematic. To me, I didn't really mind at first but now I'm getting a little sick of it. Not because of her but it's like, we're always at the same place during lessons and everything. We should have a change of seat. WeiQin and Jolene are complaining that they are always at the back. Sitting at the front didn't have it's benefits as well. The screen is too near and it's really hard to read off for long periods of time.

During maths lesson, Mr Wen introduced us to the special and interesting programmes that we're be having. And of course I'm in the "special" list. I'm assigned to Jennifer's group. Yay ! The bad part, CheeWee is in too. LOL :P We all agreed that he'll be a good member if he stops talking :X hehehe.

I was pratically stoning during computing lessons. Pinched till my entire hand was red but my eyelids still didn't have the energy to lift itself. Blehs. And throughout the period I was listening to the discussion of Jolene, CheeWee and MingSheng. It was pretty hilarious of how they thought about primary school. MingSheng was accusing Jolene of being heartless as she didn't miss her primary school . On the otherhand, Mingsheng wanted to go back his primary school to thank a school teacher. Jolene then said that he should go appear on Happy Sunday. The show that we've always watched when we were young. We started acting out the entire plot.

Jolene started narrating.

Like any other days, MingSheng went to school happily. Little did he know that that day, everything was going to change for him. When he reached home, his parents broke the news to him.

I joined in, acting as the parents.

MingSheng, we have decided to move to Singapore to live.

Jolene continued the story.

MingSheng was so depressed as he would have no chance to thank his primary school teacher.

And so, if you've watched the show when you're young, you would know what would happen next. LOL.

Anyways, we got back our economics paper today. Flunked it like what the teachers said. I seriously wonder what Ms Kwok has against me. When she was giving out the papers, she passed by Jeannette and Jennifer but she just has to place THEIR papers on my desk. It's so weird. Then I have to pass it to them. They are just in front or behind me. The weird thing is she PASSED them before reaching my desk. During lessons she was asking me questions like crazy. I wonder why. Maybe she hates me or something. Jolene said that she was worried because she might be called next. Seriously, I don't know what's wrong with her. WeiQin suggested that maybe I was falling asleep. Nah. The only lesson I would fall asleep in is computing but I would always stay in the falling asleep phase. Never would I really fall asleep.

Oh well, time to print my computing notes. Had a fun time blogging ! :PP Cyas ~ Tomorrow is phototaking day ! Have to look my best ! :P

i hate this ..

i wish i could just escape from all these

Blogless

2009-07-06T21:02:00.004+08:00

DARN. I'm just so gona rant here. YEAH. This blog is supposed to be closed but my current one went down and I have no where to vent my fustrations at. Somehow I got to here. Been waiting for an answer. It's okay if I change my site but I don't want my past posts to be lost. Those memories, I don' think I can recover it from my memory alone. I need them . All I can do now is pray that it'll be good news.

I haven't been a good girl at all. I broke my promise again. Blehs :l Time flies and tomorrow's school opening again. My homework ain't even half done. Too bad huh . Anyways I'm addicted to this song by Hoobastank. It's in the Transformers soundtrack.

I Don't Think I Love You lyrics

I wonder what you'll take from me today
Sanity or just my breath away
It's hard to say
Impossible for me to tell
We're always walking on eggshells
Who you're going to be from day to day today

Chorus:
I wish that we could go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Wonder why it is that you don't see
What you've changed since we first met
And how much that is killing me
I know that I will always miss
The butterflies of our first kiss
And how you use to smile so easily

Chorus:
I wish that we could go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Bridge:
It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I never thought that it will come to this
I know we'll never get back
To how we were before
Cuz I know that I don't love you anymore

It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I know that I don't love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry...

credits : elyrics

Pleas .

2009-03-24T18:15:00.001+08:00

It'll do me utmost pleasure for those who are currently using my blogskins to change the credits accordingly to my new blog address (: Thanks in advance.

MOVED .

2009-02-22T10:02:00.001+08:00

HELLOS EVERYONE ! I've officially moved to www.hwee-ified.com which means I won't be bloggin here anymore . A little sad . I mean this blog has been with me for so long . I won't close down this blog because it contains all my archives and posts which I've decided not to export to the new blog . So if you ever want to read what happened in the past, you can still come here and visit . Like I would ! :D So yeah people . Relink . Thanks (:

TGIF ! :P

2009-02-20T21:51:00.004+08:00

Gosh . Been so long since I've felt this kind of ache . I remember that when I was in secondary school, I loved to play badminton with my friends after school . And it's really those kind of insane type . We play for really long like 4 5 hours ? And after that when you're really thirsty, you're wrist is so tired until you can't even hold a can drink upright . So it's completely "puppet" .

Now, I feel EXACTLY the same . It's a little crazy but yeah . I can't really move my hands much . It's like stuck to the table top ? The ache starts kicking in when I start to control it . Yupp . And the reason for it ? I've been lifting someone up a lot of times . And the person is .. FLIPEE ! I mean ANGHUILING ! :X LOL . So cute yeah ! Flipee ~ I love it . I mean the name :X YingZhu and me were the flippers :P I'm really weak . My arms have no strength . I finally understood how it feels to carry someone . It's totally exhausting . Usually I was the one being lifted x.x well ..

School was okay I guess . Wasn't as long as yesterday . Managed to endure it all . And the reason is most probably school started later today . So I could get a little more sleep ~ :DD Actually I didn't because I slept later . LOL x.x

Met up with WeiQin in the morning . We were both late but we came the same time which is like way cool . Then we walked up to SunPlaza's mac . Was queuing when I suddenly felt a white prescence behind me . As in there was someone wearing white behind me . I turned around and saw Melvin . LOL . He was like " WeiQin why did you look here ! " . I was like "I could feel someone behind x.x " . So we cleared up the misunderstanding and WeiQin wasn't the reason why I turned around . It was a little weird as WeiQin smsed Melvin during midnight . And somehow, he woke up around 2 plus and read it . So somehow, we didn't expect him to come but he did . So yeah . WeiQin gave him that pencilbox she had . Perfect for him . On top it wrote "For whole human beings only " . He was like so happy with it and said that he would quickly make the transfer . Hilarious .

Reached school like quite early . Melvin was still worried that we might be late . Well . Can't blame him because he usually takes the bus to school . Oh . And the message that WeiQin sent to Melvin . LOL . So funny :X Shall not blog it out or she'll KILL me :X

PC/CT was a little lame . Didn't do much . Went for maths reflection . Well .. I feel sad for teachers . How hurt they would feel when the students ain't paying attention or don't fare well . Because they would feel that it's their fault that the students get such results . And Muthu was playing PSP under the table ?! x.x

Physics lecture was quite okay . Sat beside YangJie and WeiQin . We were freezing ! And YangJie lent WeiQin his shirt . Guess what did WeiQin say immediately when she got hold of it ? "It stinks" . LOL :X So mean . Hehe ~

Computing . Had practical . Basically I was trying to fix that stupid error . And Mr Ho was so mean to me ! I asked him what's wrong with the program because I seriously couldn't solve it . Okay . I shall type it properly so you all could visualize what happened .

Me : Mr Ho ~ I NEED HELP ! SERIOUS .

Mr Ho : Okay what .

Me : I have no idea what error this is .

Mr Ho : Oh . Read it .

Me : (started reading)

Mr Ho : No . I also can read . You read then figure out on your own (walks away)

Me : What ?! x.x

Thanks YeowKeng for helping -______- I was like AHHH . Mr Ho is sooo unfriendly :X LOL . After that he was helping Jeannette . She was complaining that he was so mean . I told her that's he was already good to her . Mine was much worse . Jolene added in saying that if it's us . He would just walk away . Which is what happened to me apparently x.x Well . But the practises are making me get the hang of it already . Quite happy :DD

Break . BROKED inside out . I couldn't buy food . Well .. I guess someone did lend me money . Haix ~ :l Oh well . Forget it . Saw XueEr . And I found out that Jeannette is Lynnette's OGL . Lynnette is SO CUTE ! I was telling them that she's always teaching us WonderGirl's dance during our dance practises . And she immediatly perked up after hearing the word "WonderGirls" . I was telling her about what happened yesterday when she was asking Kyung to teach her korean . It was so funny how the others believed that she was half korean .

Did the card for Ms Huang during break too with WeiQin . It was a farewell gift because it was the last day she would be attached to our class . She would be teaching J1s from next week onwards ): Never mind . Shall meet up next time since she only live so near us ! Sembawang ~ :P

Had Physics lesson after that . Was really tired . Then went for dance . Learnt new parts . Lifting people is seriously not an easy job . Disappointment ? What can I say . All I could do is make the best out of it right now . Hold on people because we're in it all together ..

Thanks Daph for the picture ! She took a photo of WenJia and me using her polaroid camera . It was SO COOL . And I'm keeping it :X Sorry WenJia . Heh ~ Shall show it next time . Because WenJia wanted to take home and scan it into the computer . And I realised that WenJia and me look alike when we wear the Canberra house shirt . And also after I went to cut my fringe . LOL :P

After dance, WenJia and me sat at a bench near the mrt . It was dark and windy . Felt really good to sit down and relax while eating subway cookies :P Peanut butter and Macadamia . Talked about stuff . I guess she's the only one that really knows what's going on in my life right now . Because we are like so much alike and all . Thanks :D I need a friend and you're there for me .

Anyways I heard this song just now when I was visiting Jonathan's blog . It was the piano version . It's really good ! I love it :P

Bright cold silver moon

Tonight alone in my room

You were here just yesterday

Slight turn of the head

Eyes down when you said

I guess I need my life to change

Seems like something's just aren't the same

What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

And every time that I try I get tongue tied

I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars

I wonder just where you are

You feel a million miles away

(I wonder just where you are)

Was it something I said?

Or something I never did?

Or was I always in the way?

(Was it something I did?)

Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

And every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end

Don't want to be here again

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

What it takes I don't care

We're gonna make it I swear

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

But every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end

Don't want to be here again

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

What it takes I don't care

We're gonna make it I swear

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

credits : lyricsreg.com

Ahh . Before I forget . Two pictures I've taken in the past . MingSheng's new Meiji bottle . He was so happy over it and flaunt how good it was . Then I shot him . Wow .. Good but ..

It leaked ? And his whole bag was wet . LOL .

A little happy . LOL :P Shouldn't say why . Lala ~

JASPER .

tell me tell me tell me too ~

2009-02-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

Well . I'm comfortably on my chair now, waiting for JiaKiang to teach me question 6 of the physics tutorial . So till then, I shall blog ! :D Today is a LONG day and hence I bet the blog post is gona be long too :P

During assembly, there were talks on Floorball's trip to Japan and Band's trip to HongKong . Well . I was quite envious of how they managed to see the snow because they went to the other part of Japan while we stayed in Tokyo for the entire week . And also the homestay . I really wanted to see how it feels to live in a Japanese home . They also showed us a video on cheerleading . Gosh . It's not that kind of cheerleading you're thinking of . I recently just read a manga that featured cheerleading during their school's sportmeet . It was really cool . And looking at the "real" japanese do it was a little funny at first because they were so serious . But as I watched on, I realised how serious they were and how much they value it . They play a huge part in lifting the students' spirit during important events . I guess if we see it in a different perspective and we stop how we view people based on popularity, maybe one day we can do it too . It may seem funny to those who can't comprehend and lack the courage to do what they want . In the end, they just go with the flow and in the end, they can never achieve what they really want .

Okay . Enough with all this . Band's way of presenting was really cute . Brought a lot of laughter and all . Was totally engrossed in it . It was way COOL ! How they managed to perform in HongKong's Disneyland . I mean it's an experience not everyone can get to have . Totally envious ! :P Not to forget, the last part of the presentation when they were showing the video, there was a live performance by Jonathan . He was playing the piano . Gosh . It was so heartwrenching ! The tune was so good . And the melody is still stuck in my head right now . I turned around and told Jolene " Either I learn how to play the piano, or my future boyfriend must be able to play it " :X LOL . I mean .. it's seriously .. yeah . LOL .

And also people, please vote for YJ ! yishunjc.does.it Mr Phang is in it ! And he spoke really fluent Chinese . Way to go ! :P

GP lecture was a little boring I guess . I'm tired of the intense comprehension exercises . Felt like sleeping . My vocab is really bad . I didn't know most of the words . In the end, I only got one mark for it . I guess it's normal in some sense . It's not like I got more than 2 marks for vocab before -___________-

Economics lessons was stoning again . Computing was ahhh x.x I guess Jolene is sick of me already . Because I don't have a single clue what Mdm Myl is saying . I think today's one was the first time I got it . Yeah . The previous ones were x.x Haix . And guess what's the best part ? There's a test on it next monday . All the best to me !

Break was the best . Half an hour only for the entire long day of school plus extra malay lesson and dance . Ate all I could . Finally I came to realize why MingSheng can eat a plate of beehoon and get full . Mine was like 1/3 of his and I couldn't even finish it . Felt really full when I've eaten half portion of it .

Physics lecture, I was "lost" . Maths lesson . There was a test . Guess I fared okay . Starting to get the hang of vectors like finally ? Showed Jolene Wondergirl's music videos . Lynnette is driving me crazy with them and I'm infecting the others . Good job yeah ? I sang "Nobody" and "Tell me" for the entire day . Jolene was exasperated by my actions but she couldn't have a say in whatever I'm doing . So she had to suffer :PP

GP lesson . We had a vocab pop quiz . Couldn't retain any words in my head at all . AHH ! Need to start using the words . If not, I think I would never get to master them .

Computing was Mr Ho's lesson . Everyone was quite high at that time . After that, ate 2 buns and went for Malay lesson . Everyone got a chance to introduce ourselves in Malay and I really sucked in it . RenZhi, YangJie and Cheewee were posing weird questions to everyone . Jeannette's one was who does she like and stuff . CheeWee's one was how many times did .. :X LOL . Better don't type . Later he kill me :X But seriously, they made the lesson more fun . If not it would be a dead one . Talking about dead, YangJie killed an insect and left the corpse on my paper . I was totally freaked out . I was about to tear already and I was telling myself that I can't cry over the fear of a stupid tiny insect in class ! So I was holding on to it . They thought that I was depressed and all . Actually I was trying to breathe properly x.x Jeannette eventually helped me to get rid of it and wrote RIP on it . Oh well ..

After that was Dance . Practised more . WenJia was really cool . She should join WuShu . When she did the "hah" thing . It was really fierce . And when I tried, it was a COMPLETE failure . Mine was "hah" but it was a little high pitch ? When I raise my voice, it starts to get higher -______- I shall sing instead . This ain't for me . Lynnette was dancing to Wondergirl's song when the security guard auntie saw her . LOL . She was so embarrased and all . But she's really good at it . She's joining talentime . She couldn't get anyone to dance with her so I think she's gona sing . So support her people ! :DD Anyways the juniors really make my day . They are so hiliarious and we had a fun time bullying WenJia :X LOL ~

Went to have dinner with WenJia at northpoint after dance . Showed her all the music videos . I think she might get infected with this "wondergirls" disease soon . Oh yeah . Lynnette lied to the guys that she was half korean and they said that she looked like Kyung . LOL . Funny . And they tried to converse in Korean . It was totally like a korean drama . They were so natural and all . For Kyung, of course . I mean it's his native language . But for Lynnette, she was cool .

Then I went to find my mum and maid at Sembawang Shopping Centre . Walked home after that . It was nice to have the wind hitting gently on your face :DD

Okay . Time to sleep ~ :DD Bye people . Have a good night !

tired ><"

2009-02-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

It's late right now . Oh wait . Is it ? Lately, I've been sleeping earlier and this would be counted as late already . I've realised how important sleep is to ensure that you're awake most of the time during school .

Was really tired in school today because yesterday night I couldn't sleep properly . Kept tossing and turning . Even when I slept, I felt like I was subconciously awake . It was freaky . Been long since I've felt like this .

Shall keep this post short because I want to sleep !

There's these juniors in dance that are really cute . LOL . A korean fan . She was teaching us how to dance Wondergirls songs . Learnt some steps in So hot and Nobody . LOL . It was fun seriously . She was like going crazy over all the dance and stuff . Was happy that there were people like her . She claimed that in secondary school, all her friends didn't want to join in so this time she was really excited about it . She's so cute seriously . The other juniors too . Oh well . Seems like dance is going to be not that boring ...

Lessons were as usual today . Used Jeannette's magical eyedrops when I felt like sleeping . Ash was hiliarious during GP lesson . Every group took turns to present their mindmaps . So HanWee and Ash were together presenting one of them . When it reached the end, HanWee said " stand " to Ash . And he stood up . Actually what he wanted was the stand ot the essay . LOL . It was really funny . We were laughing like crazy and all .

PE was disappointing because I ran slower than last week . Darn . I guess I'm further away from Napfa gold now ): Need to buck up even more !

Chatted with WenJia when we were on our way home after dance . It seems like I'm not the only one feeling this way right now . Our lives are upside down right now . They were peaks and now we were the opposite . So it is so difficult to get over this period . She totally understands how I feel and everything .. Haix ..

Anyways, I was reading the newspaper just now . Saw this short little post . There was this sign with "a couple smooching but with a cross over it "put up in .. Can't remember what country . It was put up in order to prevent from couples from kissing goodbye when their spouses leave for work every morning . It was quite cute I guess .

And MingSheng showed me some pictures of a transparent LCD . So cool ! And it seems that Apple has it xDD

if today was the last day ..

2009-02-17T20:15:00.002+08:00

YAY . I got myself screwed all over upside down inside out and I've decided to stay here until I've settled the new website . And I'm not gona waste any more time on it for now because I have school ! No time at all . So I shall leave it to the weekends . Meanwhile, lets start with my ultimate boring post . LOL .

Today was a .. no idea what to comment day . LOL .

GP was kind of hilarious for my group because we are really unprepared ? Or should I say we did a slipshod work, not adding CheeWee's totally -____- presentation . He seriously has no idea what was going on . I applaud him for having the courage and initiative to even go up and present it . Oh well . All's forgiven because other groups were no where better . We were all suffering under the clutches of Ms Mok . So the verdict was to redo all of them until she accepts them . I see more work coming .

Physics practical was a .. Well . How do I explain this ? Today's experiment got to do with circuits, something which I am really WEAK at . You would understand why shortly . So I was a little nervous, fixed everything up with help from the diagram we had . And VIOLA, I've started a small barbeque . The only thing missing was the marshmallows . Yeah . You've got it . Short circuit . Jeannette, Jennifer and ShunYu were laughing at me . Told me to put out the fire and all . I was rooted to the floor, literally . I mean hello ? It's burning and it was a total shock . What could I have done ? Whip out a satay stick with yummy marshmallows and start having the time of my life ? It was totally hilarious . Well . I did put out the fire . Ms Huang helped me a lot . Thanks !

Shall not elaborate on computing and break . Economics lesson was a tug of war between my eyelids and my perseverance . The little voice in my head told me I shouldn't sleep repetitively while my eyelids rebutted that a little sleep won't harm . I tried all kinds of measures such as pinching myself, using my fingers to spread apart my eye lids and all . After that, a tiny little action did the trick . EYEDROPS ! I felt totally refreshed and awake at that moment . Suddenly whatever Ms Kwok says started getting into this little brain of mine .

Maths lecture . I was trying to do the assignment due tomrrow . 4 questions in total and I did like 2 parts . Not a bad accomplishment ? LOL . Okay . I was distracted most of the time and my dry eyes didn't do anything to help .

After that I rushed to complete my Physics SPA . Though I "rushed", I used more than 1 hour to complete it . And hence, getting the award, slowest girl ever . Everyone finished earlier than me . Oh well . My brain is just not meant for this kind of stuff . Logic ? You can't find it anywhere in me . I'm a random girl . Yeah .

Reached home, meddled with wordpress, gave up and here I am . Gona do my maths homework next and transfer some songs into my itouch . This has been onhold for so long . So I've got to do something . Okay . Time to go . Bye people .

"If today was your last day

Would you make your mark

On ending a broken heart

You know it's never too late

To shoot for the stars

Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes

Cause you can't rewind

A moment in this life

Let nothing stand in your way

Cause the hands of time

Are never on your side"

2009-02-17T18:55:00.001+08:00

Hellos people, I'm currently moving to a new site (:

Actually I wanted to export all my posts there but it ended up really messy and yeah . I've decided to leave all the past here and move on to a new place ! :D

So please go to the new site hwee-ified.com .

It's currently still under maintainence . Still fixing it and stuff . Yupp (:

2009-02-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

Just thought I should at least mention that this site might be moving soon . Perhaps tommorrow ? I'll see how much time I would need . But it would be in the near future which means like by this week or something :D

A brand new blogging experience .

2009-02-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

My mood has still been in the fluctuation mode lately . Thanks everyone for bearing with me .

Yesterday, went to Sembawang Shopping Centre . Didn't buy Subway cookies . AHH ~~ ><" LOL . Oh well . Can't really remember what happened except I was really pissed off with Physics and stuff .

Today was better I guess . School was a good place to relax with all your friends around .

I got AMETHYST colour contact lens ! IT'S COOL . Maybe I'll wear it tomorrow . Depends :P

2009-02-15T23:02:00.003+08:00

firstly, i apologize for everything im gona post . if u hate to see vulgarities, den dun read any further ..

i think i can spout like a million expletives right now .

i need a break, a really long break from all of these .

not just school work and dance .

everything . my life . it's crashing down at a freaking high speed .

till i don't even know what is going on .

i'm too lost . i can't find my way out .

it just keeps on coming and it's not stopping .

it's even difficult to breathe .

and when i tell myself that i should try harder .

or perhaps its me that im too weak .

stop running away and avoiding everything .

it just keeps on crashing down .

one by one . doesn't stop does it ?

when would it happen ?

when im finally dead ?

damn it .

damn you .

damn everything that's happening .

damn all these nonsense that im facing .

damn shit .

freaking hell .

brain dead .

whatever .

ass .

damn .

i hate everything right now .

a thousand hate posts also won't do anything .

im gona be selfish .

so selfish tomorrow .

and i don't freaking care if i hurt anyone around .

'cause that's just too bad .

your too unlucky to be around me .

or should i say you deserve it ?

hah .

freaking shit .

whatever .

you suck .

well . don't worry .

'cause i suck more than you ..

all those voices around,

if you can't be there for me forever,

then don't come near me in the first place .

i don't want any superificial care and concern,

makes me feel worse .

one moment you're there, and then you're not .

it's better if you're not even there at all .

Runaway - Avril lavigne

Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah

Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late

My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range

Looks like it's just one of those kind of days

You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground

No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow

Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no

Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud

And I feel so alive

I can't help myself

Don't you realize

[Chorus]

I just wanna scream and lose control

Throw my hands up and let it go

Forget about everything and run away, yeah

I just wanna fall and lose myself

Laughing so hard it hurts like hell

Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering

I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning

Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk

Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

And I feel so alive

I can't help myself

Don't you realize

[Chorus]

Run away, run away [Repeat]

[Chorus X2]

2009-02-15T22:18:00.001+08:00

keep thinking . thinking of what she said . darn . what's wrong with me . it doesn't matter really . and am i doing all these nonsense . all these unnecssary things that won't make a difference .

not just insane . dumb is part of the factor . or maybe there are more things around . there won't be just one method of course . many others just waiting for me to implement it . and now i've gotten to the next one . maybe this one would work after all . maybe ..

2009-02-15T22:09:00.001+08:00

i hate you ..

i hate this ..

i hate that ..

i hate everything ..

i hate .. hate hate hate hate hate

2009-02-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

Was watching Underworld 3 : Rise of the Lycans when a bug suddenly disturbed me :X LOL . I was like AHHH ~ then I ran away . Really far away from it . My dad was like x.x "so small you also scared" . I replied " so gross T____T . I know it is not it's fault that it is ugly but .. " LOL ><" Ahh . My dad replied " wa . next time your husband sure very pitiful " . I was like -______-

But now I think of it, it's so true :X

Since it's Val's day . I shall type this and when I come back and read this next time, I should be able to have a good laugh ! :P

These are like the basic requirements :XX

He must

- not be scared of bugs and catch them any time . LOL

- be able to make pasta ! :X or don't mind eating it . Unless I learn to make it x.x

- love manga(s) and anime(s) because im an addict :P

- be able to stand my lameness and randomness . hehehe

- remember my birthday ! :X Or I'll kill him !

- buy a chocolate cake for my birthday :P

- bring a sweater around everywhere because I'm scared of cold ! :X hehehe

- be able to stand my messiness :X

- enjoy watching movies all day long at home while munching finger food :P

- be able to stand my "1 hour to prepare to go out" illness :X

- be able to stand my "I get really long to get up in the morning because I often say okay and go back to sleep" illness

- be able to stand my addiction to black, white, and bright colours ! (esp. hotpink)

- be able to stand my long nails :X

Oh gosh . Sounds difficult . LOL ..

happy valentine's day

2009-02-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

~~happy~~ valentine's day

shouldn't really elaborate on what happened . and if you're trying to guess, it has nothing to do with love .

it sucks . like crazy . am i too weak ? why do i accept facts so easily . how come i can't find the determination anymore . why isn't hard work = results . why is life so unfair . or maybe i'm the one at fault .. whatever . darn .

aches . bruises . disappointment and tears

a masked black friday

2009-02-13T22:56:00.004+08:00

A slacker blogger ! Yeah . I guess I can be considered one lately . Just ain't in the mood to blog . As in, I can't remember what really happens in school and all . A little off perhaps . I wonder why x.x

Well . Today is Friday the 13th . Anything bad that happened ? Not really . Moody ? Well .. Can't say I'm really happy and all . But I guess it's okay . I'm fine (:

Went to school quite early today I guess . Was tending to the flowers stall by Dance . Everyone put in so much effort ! ><" Great job guys . They didn't sleep at all to make sure those roses look good with ribbons and all . And when I saw the bouquets, I was like "waa . professional . " They look real good . WenJia was fantasizing that someone would give her too and all . And suddenly it was marriage already x.x She's a little insane . LOL .

Saw two guys wrapping flowers into a bouquet . So sweet . Oh well . Although it wasn't really that well done, sincerity is all that counts right . I'm sure the person who receieved it felt the love *hints* :X LOL . Okay ~ But seriously . Looking at guys trying so hard to do art and craft stuff just because of their loved ones . So sweet ! :DD

When to class late . Thanks everyone for your gifts ~ Should I list one by one ? LOL . Actually it's not really a lot so I guess it doesn't hurt to thank them . Anyways a picture of my peg and card ! xD

Aren't they nice ? :P The hotpink one on the left . Nail polish from thefaceshop .

LOL . Yesterday when my mum came into my room, she was like " you very rich hor . use nailpolish" . I was like I have no other choice . LOL . But nail polish was good in making the clip all glittery . The only thing was the smell I guess . Choking on it all night x.x LOL ><" Oh . Shouldn't say where I got these from . Joyce knows right :X LOL . But they are nice aren't they ! :DD

Gifts from everyone . Thanks guys ~!! :D Who said that Valentine's is a day only for lovers ! :P Oh wait . Today ain't Valentine's yet . Tomorrow would be a different story x.x

Thank you's . They are in random order of no preference of any kind .

Thank you WenJia for the flower ( though it's fake :P)

Thank you WeiQin for the heart and safety pin (we got it together :D)

Thank you LingLan for the red rose (love ya lots too, always !)

Thank you Joyce for the rocher flower (so that's the reason you were looking for balloon sticks huh . LOL )

Thank you Jolene for the flower and chocolate bar (Come on baobei ~ Fake flower doesn't mean anything . It's the person who give ~ You know you're important to me ! :P)

Thank you Jeannette for the flower (pink pink pink ~ lalala :X *hehehe*)

Thank you Jaslyn for the ribbon rose and the nougats (why never wrap yourself in ribbon ! :X)

Thank you Jennifer for the fair faced flower (Smirks at Jeannette :X)

Thank you JiaWei for the pocky stick (It's strawberry though :l)

Thank you Shannon for the red rose (roses are nice ! Learn to like them ! :P)

Thank you MingSheng for the ribbon rose and rocher (great effort there :D)

Thank you YangJie for the nicely wrapped rocher with ribbon (wow . great ideas . hm .. LOL)

Thank you Husnain for the chocolates (yeah . we rock ! xD)

Thank you RenZhi for the chocolates

Thank you JiaKiang for the chocolates

Thank you Muthu for the lollipops ( and Shannon, you treat me as dustbin is it ! ._. even CheeWee agreed ! x.x )

Thank you Ms Huang for the insiprational postcard to the class

Thank you people ! :DD

Oh . And thanks to my brother for losing my ipod and getting a new one back :X LOL .

Second Generation of ITouch :D I missed my old one though :l

Lessons were a little depressing . Especially since maths reflections . Vectors . Darn . When I thought it was an okay topic . Haix .. Physics I couldn't really focus anymore . Was quite disappointed in myself and all .

Comp was fun ? LOL . It was quite okay I guess . Melvin was being lame again . I was trying to make him give me the dark chocolate that Jeannette gave him . Oh well . LOL . He couldn't be bothered with me . But I mean, if you don't like dark chocolates, you could give it to a dark choco lover like me ~~ :X LOL -______- Yeow Keng, Melvin and Shannon helped me with my program . Thanks . Everyone was going a little haywire I guess . The OGLs were lost . All of them calling for SOS . Luckily I didn't miss lessons if not I would have died . I meant I couldn't have survived .

During break was in computing lab still . Ate a potato pie that Jolene helped me to buy . Oops . I realised I owe her money . LOL . Gotta return her on monday . Did the CVD thing . Mr Ho was sitting beside me discussing about the proposal . Halfway through, Joyce came to pass me a Valentine's day gift . Then when I came back to the seat, he said " waa . A lot fans hor ." and he was looking at the front pouch of my bag . LOL . Fans -_____- They are friends . Not fans . As in I would have fans . What would they like ? My eccentric lameness and randomness ? Or the ability to be happy for a second and hurt at the other ?

Saw PinYe . Helped her with her computing I guess . LOL . Somehow or the other :X WeiQin and YangJie came in too . Was finalising the CVD thing . Jolene was going crazy trying to be Bubbles from Powerpuff girls . She even tied her hair into two . I had no idea who came up with the idea to cosplay cartoon characters though it's a high possiblity that it's Mr Ho . He was like trying to force me to cosplay like Bubbles at first . I was rejecting like crazy saying that I have to settle the money stuff . Then I shifted his attention to Jolene . Luckily Jolene was interested in it . LOL :X Cosplay Powerpuff girls ? No way . Anime characters, I'll think about it ! :P I wana cosplay one day too ~ :DD

Last lesson was Physics . Jas crashed our lesson . Bribed Mr Phang with Nougats . LOL . Kidding .

Went for dance after that . Guess it was okay . The dance is great . Everyone synchronized and all . Gosh . I finally saw that effect Daph wanted . She was praising the J1s like crazy and the J2s were like " aww " . When she told them to give themselves a pat on their back, Candice was doing it . Then she turned around and told us that we don't deserve it, they do . LOL . She was in the kidding tone of course but seriously the JC1s learn so fast ! And the studio is suddenly so small ><" Blehs .

Ate dinner with WeiQin, KaiLi, Tsu Qin and Cassandra . 1000 calories x.x LOL ><" It was a great dinner . Missed having dinner with Cassie . Last time before tuition and all . Yeah .

Tomorrow is Valentine's and I guess I'm going to spend it with the Dance people till 4pm ? x.x Oh well . Wanted to chill out with friends and all but I guess they might not be free . Spending one's Valentine's with family members may not be the best choice but it's better than being alone ? ><"

Now I'm going to turn in for the night I guess .

Goodnight people . Sweet dreams :D Happy Valentine's Day !

"Roses . Thorns they may have but without them, the rose would simply seem like a simple flower . " - EmotIc

Should I or should I not .. ?

2009-02-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

A person that can't do much . How helpless can a person be ? Words that I just can't say . Feelings that I can just never describe and yet the only word that is left hanging in silence is "sorry" . There's too much that one have to do and too little that one can ever achieve . Sometimes there's really too much stuff that's pulling you back . The burden that just doesn't decrease no matter how much you strive to move forward .

If I could turn back time, I wish that I didn't ever went through all these . And at that time, what kind of person would I have been ? A person that runs away . A person who tries so hard to avoid . Yes . You're looking at her .

Even if I say it a thousand times . Say it like I mean it, it doesn't mean that I would believe it . I don't have the confidence you want to see .

Smiles just don't do the trick .

Tears just don't rub off the pain .

Hard work just don't always pay off .

Waiting makes someone too weak .

Air that feels as heavy as mud .

When it is too difficult to even breathe,

what is it that would push you on .. ?

when i say that it's the last gift ever .

i mean it ..

i hate myself

Random Rantings : RR - XiaoFiFi

2009-02-10T20:28:00.003+08:00

Okay . Decided to blog about XiaoFi . Apparently it's not fifi . I don't know why I gave it a new name though x.x

Uhh .. This bread look a like thing . Made me ponder for quite sometime . I was thinking why would they sell such stuff . It's like it's weird . It's not edible or anything . It's not even good to hug . So it's kind of . And it's weird hugging it even if it's huggable . And the point is it's not that cheap or anything . Why not just buy an edible one and eat it up ?

I think we have really run out of creative juices . Trying so hard to think of something cute . Something that will make girls go " eee ~ so cute ! " Well . Is it that hard actually ? Or is competition really too hard out there that we have to resort to some weird ideas already .

And if you look in the market, it's not only bread look a like soft toys . There are also cake and stuff . The point is that they made it really alike to the real thing . Even with the "smell" . So it kind of make me wonder of the real purpose of it . To trick someone ? Well . I don't really have any idea .

bored life :l

2009-02-10T19:55:00.002+08:00

I'm bored . Thorough and through . Well . Asked Jas for a topic and she gave me one . I think I should change my blog a little . 2 sections . One for daily stuff and the other for my comments or thoughts about some topic . No fixed topic . I'll talk about anything . Isn't that a good idea ? LOL .

Okay . So here goes the topic for today . Xiaofifi . I have NO idea what can I type with regards to this WEIRD topic . It's not like I know it well or anything . I mean it's Jas's soft toy right . Or can it even be considered as a soft toy at all ? Anyways those that are lost . Here it is . The main character for today .

Ah . Okay forget it . I don't wana type about it anymore . Nothing to say . I shall read my newspapers while listening to We The King songs . I think their songs are really nice ~ :DD

"Where are your guts to fly?

Soaring through, through the night

And if you take that last step

I'll follow you

Leave the edge and fly

We're finally alive"

i need a miracle .. where's my blue moon ?

OGLs ~~ Missed ya lots :l

2009-02-09T22:10:00.002+08:00

Well . Today overall . FUN DAY ! Maybe because the OGLs are back in class . Without the 7 of them, class is a complete boredom except the random jokes frm perhaps Melvin or WeiQin .

Met Jolene today at the gate as usual . Her peeling Michael Jackson nose was like the main focus of everyone . Oh . And Joyce had some of her tooth removed . So now she's currenly spreakring rlike thris :X Hehe . LingLan and I are such meanies ~ Whee :P LingLan was helping me with DC circuit tutorial on the way to school . THANKS . Without you, I'm a gone case-er . LOL . New word formed :X Oh . Thanks to Shannon too .

Let's continue with school shall we ? Well . PE was AHHH . Aching like crazy still . Can't laugh properly either because when I laugh, ache ache ache . Gosh . I feel so old . And I can't sneeze too . Ache ! x.x Haix . PE circuit training . I hate them . I rather do 2.4 . I think the only thing I can do in PE is run ? I suck . Ah . I realised I have this habit to keep saying gosh lately . LOL . Wonder why . Maybe I should use jeez instead .

Now my leg muscles are aching so much that I just want to sit and sleep forever . After PE was .. computing . A little stoney here and there . Was worrying about the physics test . Haix ..

Physics test was .. Well . I think I still won't pass . I should seriously consider about physics tuition . Darn .. Somehow those diagrams just make me so confused and all . I wondered why did I even bother taking Physics in the first place when I already know I suck at it ! AHH ! x.x

Well . Oh . And Jolene edited CheeWee's SGC . IT's HILARIOUS but true :X LOL . Shall put it up on class blog or something . Cheewee didn't really mind and was laughing at it also x.x

Jolene was going crazy during school . Keep "honey" this and that to CheeWee. LOL . Funny :X She was telling everyone that she's free on saturday . XueEr was like telling her that they should go out together so would not be so lonely and stuff .

Okay . Time to sleep ~ :D Nites people ..

"I have this really bad feeling that I'm gona be really hurt in a few days time . Hah . Like I'm not usually " - emotIC

2009-02-09T21:21:00.001+08:00

Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings

Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart.
Don't say we're not meant to be.
Run, baby, run.
Forever will be
You and me.

"the last gift ever .. may you have a happy valentine's day (: " - EmotIC

2009-02-08T19:40:00.002+08:00

Well . What have I been doing these few days ? :DD Okay . LOL . I'm a little crazy . Starting with this kind of weird question .

Let me continue from the previous post :DD Oh anyways . I WANT GET SUSPENDERS !! :P okay randomness ~ Whee . Let's talk about something else . Oh . And did I mention that my mum bought me a halter neck vest from Genting ? Whee ~

Okayokay . Continue ><" If not I think the post would be sooooo long and I haven't type anything worth reading yet :X

Melvin was a little crazy . Acting like a retard and stuff . And he had this really WEIRD accent . During Physics class he was acting like an old wise man or something . Giving those advices and stuff. Oh well . But thanks for making the lesson bearable . If not I would have fallen asleep already .

After that was dance . Lots of people came in for dance audition . Most of them were really good ! Gosh . I feel so inferior to them T____T Haix .. And we learnt more stuff . As in SYF . Changed quite a lot . Well .

After that went for Jam n Hop . Gosh . Not as fun as ours I guess . Think it's because it wasn't in an enclosed area . So no one was high and all . And everyone was busy bbq-ing and eating . LOL . Oh . The satay was great :X

Saturday . 8 more people came . Guess what ? All of them can split . Whoo ~ Cool right . Just showed how much I suck again . Gosh . AHHH . Haix ..

WenJia came my house to settle the talentime stuff . On Wednesday we are going to be the emcee ! :D So come and support us okay ! Ziyan, JiaWei, WeiQin and Shayrul are performing ! COME SUPPORT THE EMCEES ! :X I MEAN ALSO THE CONTESTANTS . But emcees more important xP Oh . WenJia was SOOO FUNNY . During lunch break we were talking about Rock Band . There's 3 people in dance who have it ! AHHH . Rich people :X Oh well . Then Janice said that she would bring her guitar over to HuiNa's house next time . So HuiNa asked if can connect another one . Janice was nodding away . Suddenly WenJia interrupted and said she would bring Violin . Then we were like ... LOL . Then I asked " Do you know what is rock band ? " . She was like uhh .. When I told her it's a game . She was like oh gosh x.x LOL . The others were laughing like crazy . LOL . She's like living in a well or something :X

We did the talentime thing till 7 plus 8pm ? The script is absolutely lame :X So it's like . Look forward to it on Wednesday okay . At Wednesday Expresso :D Come okay people ! WenJia ate my entire packet of Ruffles x.x She also bought sushi . And also ate quite a lot of love letters . And the point is she's on a diet . LOL . She was like never mind . Today off day . She has been eating salad for the past few days and now all wasted . LOL . Tempted by the food in my house :X

Has been working on a blogskin that I want to submit for competition from morning till 6plus 7 just now. Well . Now gona study and do homework already ~ Bye people :D

" If I could kill someone now, it would be myself" - emotIC

2009-02-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

Aslyn - Gotta get over you

If I wanted to believe you, I guess I could
And if I wanted to understand you, I guess I would
But my days would go blank and I'd be freezing naked
Cuz stripped of you, well, that's modestly all that I know
So I'm not ready to get over you cuz

If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over every piece that puzzled you and me
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over feeling my heart and tasting and seeing
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over Earth, Wind, and Fire
Change the soap in the shower
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over singing this song for hundreds of hours

So boy while you chip in some understanding, I'll make a deal with my mess
And cleaning up what I WANNA BE SAYING is my first big step
When I close my eyes and everything I run into
Is stubbing me with bruises of memories of you
I'm not ready to get over you cuz

If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over every piece that puzzled you and me
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over feeling my heart and tasting and seeing
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over Earth, Wind, and Fire
Change the soap in the shower
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over singing this song for hundreds of hours

Waffle house jokes and romantic comedies
Avon cologne and credit card entries
Butter on popcorn and that mercury sable
The whole darn state of north carolina
My pink leather jacket and cherry hi-c
When I'm finally without you
Can't figure out what'll be left of me

If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over every piece that puzzled you and me
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over feeling my heart and tasting and feeling
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over Earth, Wind, and Fire
Change the soap in the shower
If I gotta get over you, I gotta STOP singing this song for hundreds of hours

Aches and more ~

2009-02-07T08:57:00.003+08:00

Well . Just thought I might blog before I leave the house for dance practise later . I'm currently really aching like crazy . And I'm still sick . Congratulations to those that have figured that out and those that haven't, it's fine . Okay . I'm a little insane right now so whatever I type might just be crap ! So live with it yeah . I hate to sneeze right now, because my muscles would ache . Especially the back muscles . It's a little crazy . And I'm like fighting with myself not to sneeze . So it's a little weird .

Well . I can't really remember what happened in the past few days but yeah . I slept really early, did my homework and hence , I was more energetic in school . Wait . Too energetic . Scared my friends a little . But yeah . Life is being happy right ?

During Wednesday Expresso, which is on a wednesday, DUH ? There was a cultural exchange with the NingBo students . Both YJC and NingBo students did their best to put up performances .

Below is Jane with her great calligraphy skills . She's really nervous . I could see her hands shaking away but nevertheless, IT'S GREAT . I've always admire those that could do calligraphy . I mean, it's so difficult .

Above is the NingBo student and her with their completed pieces . Really nice yeah . Both have a different style of writing but it's still so nice .

The close up shot . WenJia and me were trying to find a way to bring them back home but yeah . We ain't supposed to do that . LOL . But gosh .. It's too nice ~ A picture is better htan nothing yeah :D

Two NingBo students singing "如果的事" by Fan Wei Qi and Angela . Everyone enjoyed themselves and of course it included themselves :D

Teck Seng and Jamie performing "只对你有感觉" by Fahrenheit and Hebe . It was really funny . He was whipping out flowers one after the other . At first Jamie took the flower and threw it on the floor . But the second time she accepted it . And they were really high and all so everyone really enjoyed it .

Last but not least, a performance by ZiYan and Salizan . My memory died halfway so I couldn't take the whole performance . Well still .. enjoy (:

That was all for Wednesday Expresso . Next Wednesday is going to be the preliminary rounds for Talentime . To those that have joined, good luck :D Try your best yeah . WenJia and me are really nervous . Nope . We ain't participating in it . But we are the emcee ! ><" Gosh . Scary but might be a good experience after all :D

Yesterday was a hectic day I guess . Well, not really hectic though . Oh wait . What nonsense am I blabbering ?

Apparently Melvin was crazy . Acting like Smeagold and stuff . Drew the entire Lord Of The Rings mindmap on my paper ..

Oh wait . It's so late already . Shall blog again when I come back home . Bye guys :D Have a nice day !

2009-02-05T22:25:00.001+08:00

no matter how much i sleep, it still doesnt change ..

darn ..

haix ...

what a failure

contradictions

dummy ..

zzz

flying free ..

2009-02-05T20:35:00.002+08:00

Today during gp lecture, we did this comprehension exercise . In the text, they talked about courage . What is real courage and all . And how true it is . Makes me laugh somehow . How funny that whatever the author said was so true . Somehow it makes me feel so awkward inside . And I'm sure that everyone feels the same way deep inside too .

Courage . Just what is it ? Whatever it is . I'm sure I lacked too much of it . Always trying to run away from things that would be risky . Things that I'm unsure of the outcome . Lacking the strength to carry on . To be the person who you truly are inside . Is it even possible ?

Often, I won't deny that I feel way too insecure . I would never do things that is risky . Never do stuff that I have no idea what the ending is . No way . And I would seldom do stuff that are against the flow . Why ? The strength to be who I am . Is it that difficult ? What is it that I fear ? Even if I've figured it out .. Why can't I stand up against it ? And why I need someone to be there for me .. Why do I feel like I'm stranded alone in the dark ?

Fake . I've mentioned this many times already . Always feeling like I'm doing stuff for a motive . Finally, I've found the answers to this question in the text today . A boring text it may seem to some people but it has enlightened me in many ways . Being unable to fit into society is one of the deepest fears of not only me, but often everyone . Even if you deny, you would realise one day that everyone is actually the same . And we all lack the same old thing . Courage .

More often, you would find yourself doing things that you don't like but just because you want to go with the flow, just because you don't want to be the odd one out . Doing things just because of the way other people look at you . Is it dumb ? To me, yes . And I've finally realised that . What's the point of not showing who you really are ? What's the point of acting to be nice when you're actually not . Trying so hard to set up an impression that other people wants . On one hand, you want to fit in but on the other, you don't have the strength to move on like this .

I guess I should be myself . Be who I really am even though people oppose of it . I should stop acting like I'm really interested in something when I'm not . Stop doing all these kind of superficial stuff . Because in the end, there's no point and I don't want to lose myself anymore .. Not being able to feel myself feels terrible . Putting up a front, acting all nice . It just ain't me . In the end, I don't even recognize the girl in the mirror anymore .

Love and accept yourself . Who you really are . Stop going with the flow just because you're afraid . Speak up for yourself because no one is going to except yourself . And perhaps at that time, you would realise that you're actually not that different from others . You have no need at all .. to act like you're someone else just to fit .. into the crowd .

Lastly, a song that I really love . Sang this song during choir in secondary school ! :DD

The flute solo in front . GOSH . I LOVEEEE IT !! :DD

Flying free ( The one below is not in english )

Flying free ( This one is .. But I can't find the one with flute in front ): )

There is a place I call my own
Where I can stand by the sea
And look beyond the things I've known
And dream that I might be free

Like a bird above the trees
Gliding gently on the breeze
I wish that all my life I'd be
Without a care and flying free

But life is not a distant sky
Without a cloud, without rain
And I can never hope that I
Can travel on without pain

Time goes swiftly on it's way
All too soon we've lost today
I cannot wait for skies of blue
Or dream so long
That life is blue

Altos: So life's a song that I must sing, a gift of love I must share
Sopranos: so lifes a song, a gift of life I must share

Altos: And when I see the joy it brings, my spirits soar through the air
Sopranos: and when I see, my spirits soar through the air

All: Liek that bird up in the sky, life has taught me how to fly

For now I know I can be
And now my heart is flying free
Oooooo...

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending

2009-02-03T21:59:00.004+08:00

haix .. dad and bro quarelling again . i'm so tired of it . been so moody lately and listening to them argue is the last thing i want to do right now . been doing my homework .. can't focus . can't do them . no idea now . haix .. no idea who to ask . ain't in the mood lately . really tired . shoulders are aching . mum says it's flu . haix . every time i have flu, shoulders sure ache . then i'm gona feel so tired like right now ..

desperate times call for desperate measures

Japan Trip . Mass photos !

2009-02-03T17:59:00.037+08:00

Whee . I'm seriously too lazy to type already . So let photos do the work ! :DD They are in random order and yeah .. They might be repeats because I didn't organize them . Lazy lazy ! :PP

Anyways all of these are still from the Japan trip . Might just say some words in between the photos :DD

Jessica caught all of our " I'm tired and sian diao" look . LOL . Anyways this is the subway .

The salmon rocks !! AND PUMPKIN ! :DD

Nice ~~

LOL :XX

AHHH . What a big OCTOPUS LEGGG . AHHHH ..

The beatbox peformance that got all the girls going crazy . They were chasing after the bus . It was kinda insane . LOL .

Aya-san and Emi-san :DD

I study overseas too :P

Yum Yum . Nice beef xD

They are juice . Really . LOL :X

WA . WHAT BIG SLIPPERS .

Kyung lied to Jessica . It was so cold at that time . He told Jess that the water was warm . And yeah . She got tricked . In the end our hands were freezing .

RAMEN ~~ YUMMY :DD

Jap guys . ROCKERS MAN !!!

Ain't this gona disturb the traffic ? oO

DISNEY LANDDDDD

KAWAI NE

Fate Stay Night ~~

Wow ..

I love this one ..

I wana be the princess too ~

How magical is magical ?

Disney parade !!

This already exceeded the ticket's worth .

HEEEEE :DD

TapDance ~~

Colourful elmos all over the place !! :DD

Well . Gona upload the others next time . Still the same old thing . JAPAN ROCKS ! :DD

Smile . Lie . Whatever it takes .

2009-02-03T17:48:00.003+08:00

A funny thing just happened . MY BROTHER ASKED MY MUM " EH . ENG HWEE REACH HOME LE ARHS . " after I signed in on msn . WHAT THE HECK CAN . Hello ? I already reach home for like 2 hours already . He might as well just go inside the computer and stay in there ! x.x

Oh well . Didn't really blog yesterday because I was BUSY doing my homework which is indeed a MIRACLE and also updated the class blog . Yeah . Kinda ironic . Updated the class blog instead of mine . LOL . So today I reached home earlier .. and whee ~ I get to blog a proper post instead of a lame one .

We had "beep" test for Mass Pe . It was plain toture and after that I had dizzy spells and seriously wanted to puke . Gosh . My stamina is seriously ... Haix . And the point was I was suffering from "jelly legs" due to .. yeah . LOL . And weiqin on the other hand was suffering from cramps . So we were all in a bad form and the objective of this fitness thing was to test our maximum fitness level . Nice one . LOL . But still disappointed ><" Well .. Gotta work harder if not I won't reach my goal during Napfa ): Oh yeah . I ran more than Shannon :X MUAHAHA .

Computing was terrible . I hate practicals ><" Was suffering like usual . Lucky Melvin and MingSheng helped me along if not I would be stuck there forever dying . Oh yeah . School sucks without Jolene and Jeannette . And also YangJie . Ahh . I'm naming all the OGLs already . The class is just so quiet and I can't get used to it yet .

Physics tutorial . Complete madness . Well .. Mr Phang was really angry . And I really have to reflect on my actions . I'm in the worst lot in class . Seriously . Gosh . I really NEED LOTS OF HELP IN PHYSICS . I'm going insane already . Gotta start doing TYS and consult Mr Phang like crazy . PTD is this friday .. I have a feeling history is going to repeat itself .

Break was FOOD . Hungry . Always hungry ><"

Economics lesson was .. SLEEPYNESS . Tired .. Always tired . Either it's the classroom or me .

Phyics lecture . Muthu is so funny . LOL . And the floorball stick incident is x.x

After that was break . Well .. Felt lost without Jolene and Jeannette . Haix .. No idea what to say . Did my physics corrections ..

PC/CT was fine I guess . Suddenly the most fun period of the day . Discussing about CVD stuff . A HAUNTED HOUSE ! Won't it be great ? :DD

Sometime that WeiQin typed in the class blog that really encouraged me to move on ..

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

the best way to fall out of love .. is to fall in again

School today was okay I guess . A little craziness around because I slept kinda early as compared to the other days . Slept at 10 plus ? :DD Yay ~

Talentime people . PLEASE JOIN . The situation now is totally PATHETIC . 2 people and what ? What's the point of even having the preliminary rounds ? Well . I managed to persuade some people to join . The others that I've asked, please consider ! It's a good chance to expose yourself to performing in front of an audience (: Think about it okay ! :D

GP lesson . Was feeling guilty . I didn't really text deconstruct -______- Oh well . I'm such a slacker . LOL . Ahh . I wanted to do it yesterday but I was too tired so I went to sleep . Hehe :P Oh well .

Physics practical was "yawn .. " . MingSheng was keeping me awake I guess . He's so mean :X He knows what I mean . Don't wana type it here :P LOL . Later he kill me . Helped me with some stuff that I didn't understand . Thanks !

Computing lesson was basically " I can't sleep " chant . Couldn't focus at all . Was zoning out most of the time .

Break . Thanks Mdm Myl . We were ALL starving like crazy . Did economics homework . Melvin kept repeating and reminding me to do it . So I did it ! Yeah x.x

The best part . We were supposed to do it during lessons . LOL . Not again ?! x.x

Maths lecture . Last lesson of the day . Finally . Tuesday is seriously the best . The earliest time I can go home and rest . WeiQin was really high in fact a little insane . Was trying to irritate everyone around . MingSheng was a little off the hook also . Kept playing with Jennifer's hair . Stupid mingsheng . In the end I didn't pay attention to some many pages ! Blehs . LOL .

Okay . Ate chocolate waffle ~ !! :DD Yeah . That's all I did for today I guess . Oh yeah . Met Jolene after school . Missed her like crazy . Not to mention Bra, YangJie and also Husnain . Guess they were really high . Envious . So envious . Haix . But lessons are something I can't sacrifice right now .

Oh . And my horoscope says that " Something interesting catches your eye midday and may turn into an obsession by evening . You may not be equipped to figure it out yet so keep collecting data for now" . From The Straits Times . Haven't understood what it meant yet . LOL .

distract yourself . it's the best way to get through a day .

2009-02-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

当现实已被假象朦胧着，

一时的毅力也不过显示了自己的肤浅。

那时的冲动与勇敢所造成的结局，

是现在自己获得的结局。

那一切的一切，

不能怪任何人，

只能怪命运作弄人，

受苦的人也不过得到了“活该”的两个字。

我想要的只不过是那些，

想听的也不只是那些话。

可是为设么我能拥有的，

却完完全全比不上那些。

actions; they speak and hurt too much

A fun day indeed ! :DD

2009-01-31T22:07:00.004+08:00

Friday, 30th Jan 2009

Changed bags with Weiqin . As in I returned her her bag and she gave me back mine . Her bag is so nice ! :P And it suits my hoodie . LOVE IT ! :DD My puma bag is soo .. huge . Gosh . Haix .. Never mind . I just have to live with it now since I've already bought it .

School was boring I guess . Can't really remember anything at all .

Went for dance . It was quite hilarious . Oh yeah . Dance on thursday was quite fun . Maybe because it wasn't so stressful as compared to usual as Daph wasn't there . Sorry I have to admit this but I really can't work under pressure . I think everyone improved much more . As in a faster speed . Kyung was pretty funny . Taking the bamboo pole . He looked like a dog instructor or something . We had to do cartwheels . And he was like " DO IT OR I HIT U " . LOL . Hilarious . Had such a fun time . Friday's dance was pretty fun as well . Jac came back to visit us . Helped us to clean up the moves and stuff . And my split seems to be improving . JIAYOUS ! Though today is the last day to master it x.x And I have not . Doubt anyone had ><" But we're trying hard . Wen Jia kinda sprained her joints ? LOL . Jac was commenting that she was really old because she couldn't do a flat back . And I'm so inflexible ! She cheered me on saying that if I worked hard, I would be able to master those moves perfectly . Thanks :DD I'll try harder .

After that, waited for LingLan . Slacked outside the guitar room with Shannon, Melvin, Melwin and Adeline . They are just so funny :X Melwin said that our syf song was nice . I LOVE IT TOO ! I think the entire dance loves the theme of the new syf . Wen Jia and me were marking the steps over and over again . It was kinda weird for them to watch us . LOL . Oh yeah . And Adeline was like forcing Melvin to let her off for CCA Bazaar by squeezing his arm and digging her nails deep . Well . He let her off . Guess this method works huh . Next time when he shoot us again, I'll ask Jolene to apply violence on him :PP

Oh . Before I forget . Huiling was sharing with us this nightmare she had on the previous night . I couldn't really recall the entire story but it was something like this .

" I dreamt that I went to this village thing . It was kind of like a exhibition thing so tour groups would go there . So when I reached there, I saw this big fine print saying that everything a group comes here, there would be 64, 38,15 or 1 person that would die . It continued on with a person checking their backbone . Everyone curled on the floor and the person would touch their backbone . Everyone that was touched turned into a keychain except me . I felt pain on my back when she touched me . I realised she was tattoo-ing me . Then I woke up"

YingZhu was so funny . She started singing "This is halloween, this is halloween ~". Then I told Huiling later she lift the shirt on her back and see a tattoo there . YingZhu added on that maybe it would be a number 64 . Gosh . It was pretty freaky at that point of time . And they way YingZhu say it is seriously !! She's the best ghost story teller I ever saw .

The second scary thing that happened in dance was Janice . Oh I mean it involves Janice not her :X Because we had to think of four ugly doll poses, she started doing some really ugly ones . YingZhu told us to go home and ask our parents to help us check if it's ugly . So Janice acted out the scene with this eerie doll voice " Mummy, am I pretty ? Do you like me ? " . GOSH . SO FREAKY ! I SWORE MY ARM HAIRS WERE STANDING .

When LingLan finished her debrief, we went home .

Saturday, 31 Jan 2009

Woke up at 7 plus today . WAS ACHING LIKE CRAZY when I woke up . Thought I was going to die . LOL . Met up with LingLan to have breakfast . Whee ~ Hotcakes :P Gosh . I think I'm getting fat . AHHH . We started chatting about how stressful JC life is and all . Oh yeah . Laopa is coming YJ . Quite excited for him :X Hope he likes YJ ! :DD Heh . Maybe .. It's the only way out .

After that went for CIP . Reached Joy centre around 9plus . It was quite a messy day I guess . I mean experience . Everything was going haywire but it ended up well . We ferried the old people to Sembawang park . They got to enjoy WuShu, CO, Indian dance and other performances . Guess it was quite interesting . We became waitresses for a few hours . Took some photos ! :DD Oh yeah . We saw YanRong . Quite shocked . I mean it's a weird place :X She was there to "emo" or should I say san san xin . But I was telling LingLan . Pretty girl got troubles one mehs x.x

Photos ~~

Qian Chi ~~ Me ~~ LINGLAN ~~

ME, QIANCHI ~~ WENJIA

WHEEEEE

JOLENE, ME AND WENJIA ! ALL WE WANT TO DO IS .. DANCE !!

Ate lunch with WenJia at the Japanese foodcourt . Whee . I love the pumpkin thing . Nice :DD

Reached home around 3 plus . Got dressed and went to meet up with Joyce, LingLan, Jiaying, Sharine and WeiChey . Finally gona cut my hair because Joyce accompanied me . But she wasted her money . She didn't even cut much while on the other hand, I did cut quite a lot .

Before we cut . LOL . Wanted to take a before and after . Forgot about the after already .

Had fun in Jiaying's house . Ate lot's of food :X Glad her siblings still remembered my name . Quite touching . LOL . Her cousins are so cute . Whee ~

Played and eat a lot . ZhiYu and YiLing joined us after that . We tried to dump Joyce into the pool but we failed . Oh well . Joyce and Sharine left after a while because they had something on .

We played lot's of card games . SO FUN ~~!! :D

And Jiaying's brother is so funny . He kept suanning YiLing and all . YiLing was like retorting " Don't think you RI pro okay . We also got I in our secondary school lor . AI " . LOL .

Oh . And the joke that Yiling said . It was quite funny . Which mrt station is a ex teletubby ?

EXPO ! (Ex-PO)

LOL . Lame :X But well .. It was fun I guess . LingLan and Jiaying were busy claiming their lovers and stuff . Saw Burton, JunHong, Eugene and the others . Been a long time since I've saw them .

Well . I LOVE THE CLIQUE ! IT'S SOOO FUN TO BE TOGETHER . IDIOTIC YUANXI ! He didn't go for don't know what reason . We were all waiting ~ :l Hmm ..

Sharine and me ~~

CANDID ! I LOVE THIS PIC . My "boyfriend" and me .

UGLY FACES ~~

LINGLAN IS SOOO FUNNY :X

We played SmackJAck again . Ruined the entire stack of spongebob cards . It was pretty cute :X

EXPOSED ! Jiaying's room with RED bedsheets and blanket . Quite nice though :P

Saw Astrini after like so many years ? Whee . Okay . Today was a FUN DAY . Period . LOVE CLIQUE LOTS ! Meet up again okay ! :DD

maybe tha;'s the only solution if I want to move on ..

2009-01-31T07:42:00.002+08:00

一，二，三，四，五个月

无助的我还站在原地保持不变

狠心抛弃我的你已远远离去

只剩下不能再回去的回忆

我总是看见你的背影

听见你和她聊天的声音

心里真的好无奈不过无力的我

狠不了你只好选择狠自己

就算问题已问了几百遍

现在的情节还是保持不变

我好想里开你不想再看见你

不过心里的矛盾我输给了自己

2009-01-30T23:24:00.003+08:00

If sleeping could make me feel all better, then I wish that I can sleep forever and believe that fairytales do exist.

If there was a timemachine that I could use, then I wish that I can rewrite all my wrongings and prevent all my regrets.

If I had a choice to do whatever I want, then I wish that I can ..

2009-01-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

just how much more ..

Things about me 200 - 310

2009-01-29T21:08:00.004+08:00

And yeah . I'm bored right now . SO BORED . So I shall continue the 101 things about me thing . Everyone, don't get bored ! :PP

Oh . In case if you have NO IDEA what I'm talking about, go to a nearby place where there is a vertical plane . Then, take five steps away from it, you don't want to get too far . After that summon all your internal energy to your legs and head . Now accelerate and swing your head hard . LOL . Kidding :X Go check out the labels at the sidebar for the headings "101 things about me".

102. I can eat rice, noodles or anything that is carbohydrates in my meal only without any greens or meat.

103. I recently became a omnivore after such long years of carnivore :X

104. My brother is currently singing " 衣服本来刚刚好，怎么现在穿不了?"

105. My lips hurts now T_____T

106. I can get choked on water easily, even my own saliva .

107. I read a lot of horoscopes but I often forget about them in the end .

108. You just can't get enough of my fluctuating moods .

109. It's okay if you don't understand me because I don't either ;D

110. People who don't know me think that I'm quiet and nice .

111. I love to be organized though I'm a messy person :X

112. I evacuate silently when I see insects .

113. I have a small appetite and often would throw up if I ate too full -_____-

114. I tend to clarify questions asked because I would think a lot and in the end make out a lot out of a simple question .

115. I want to go shopping right now .

116. Speaking of that, I want to go sing K too .

117. I hate how I can't stay out late at night and then cause a lot of trouble for my friends .

118. I don't like to make people wait because of school or cca .

119. I'm often late if it's a gathering on weekends or holidays :X And everyone is used to it .

120. I just realised the importance of dressing up.

121. I have never mastered the hokkien dialect and I'm disappointed in myself .

122. I'm anti-social.

123. I don't talk to people unless they talk to me ( as in strangers or friends that I just got to know )

124. People tell me I'm always looking depressed or tired

125. The thing I love most about myself is my dimples and fingers ! :DD

126. I hate how small my eyes become when I smile

127. I'm a slacker . I can't do homework without getting distracted .

128. I have a sweet tooth .

129. You can buy me over with chocolate :X

230. I rather die than eat seafood .

231. I like the stations in Napfa in the following sequence 2.4km run, sit and reach, sit ups, shuttle run, incline-pull ups, standing broadjump

232. I LOVE GREY CONTACT LENS .

233. I want to try out cosplay one day,.

234. I want smooth hands T____T

235. I want to be thin .

236. I have physics homework .

237. LOL . I'm random .

238. I haven't eaten any chinese new year food .

239. I can listen to the same song for an entire week .

240. As long as it's bright, it attracts me . As in colours .

241. I dress up in order to feel confident .

242. I can't cut my toenails x.x

243. I want to learn how to play the piano .

244. I can't iron, cook and wash .

245. I'm a failure in housechores -_____-

246. I'm always lucky in cooking and baking . Though I don't do them, even when I do it, it turns out great.

247. I hate WASHING THE DISHES

248. My mum banned me from washing them because I don't do a good job out of it :X There's always soap left on it .

249. I hope one day Joyce can come my house and cook magi mee for me again :P

250. I rather "suan" myself than let others do it .

251. I can type without looking at the keyboard.

252. I can type fast though I only use the index fingers and sometimes the others .

253. I have no idea why did I learn this weird skill .

254. I can't correct it and I'm too lazy .

255. Till now, I have never passed one Physics test . Oh wait . Only one .

256. Every time I feel depressed, I rather bottle it all out than say anything out .

257. I want to learn how to sing well.

258. I want to master how to do a SPLIT .

259. I'm always sick .

260. I can fall asleep in less than a minute when I lie on my bed at night .

261. When I'm pissed off, I would roll my eyes .

262. I feel inferior most of the times but I won't show it .

263. I have high hopes in my economics and gp paper .

264. I wish that physics and maths would just become easier .

265. I don't tell my parents things that happened in school or when I'm feeling really down.

266. People call me or talk to me when they feel sad .

267. I have no idea why because I can't seem to solve mine either .

268. I want to take up pyschology in University because I think it's cool how people are different when we are all the same .

269. I've passed my Lit paper in secondary school because of the unseen prose and poems section .

270. I hate the lit texts and have never even finished reading Romeo and Juliet once .

271. I'm more for english though I don't look like it .

272. I feel that the heart is a useful guide for choices .

273. I'm not girly and I'm not ashamed of it .

274. I choose to wear and use stuff that I like and buy stuff that represents me .

275. I hope that people would become more sincere .

276. Even though I seem like I have a lot of friends, most of them are superficial .

277. I can't get close to others because I don't want others to get close to me.

278. Since young, my brother has always surpassed me . Hence I've developed this determination to win my brother in whatever he exceled since PSLE . Till date, I've finally done it .

279. I hate it when people compare me to others .

280. And yet I always do the latter myself .

281. I'm always jealous and envious of people around me .

282. I'm not in the " waa she or he so much money sia " .

283. I'm more in the " waa she or he can do this or that so well "

284. I think it's important to learn how to appreciate before you complain .

285. I think that JamNHop is the best part of the entire orienatation program last year in YJC . Especially the PAE one .

286. I always blurt out lame stuff .

287. I'm more evil that I look.

288. The "suan-ing" I do are all jokes . None of them are serious .

289. I would never want to hurt anyone intentionally .

290. I try my best to read newspapers everyday .

291. I hate reading the live section except for the comics and horoscope part :X

292. I want to cut HAIR !

293. When I do things, I put my whole heart into it . And hence when it fails, it takes a long time for me to recover from it .

294. I think people should be passionate in whatever they are doing in order to do it well .

295. I want to make my parents proud .

296. I want to take up hiphop courses .

297. When I'm falling asleep in classes, I pinch myself . But lately it doesn't work anymore .

298. I observe a lot .

299. I often see through it when people are faking .

300. I LOVE FRUITS ~~

301. I want to believe in something .

302. I'm starting to run out of things to say .

303. I hate my voice .

304. I hate how I look .

305. I LOVE PASTA . ESPECIALLY CHEESY ONES ! :DD

306. I do the weirdest things you can ever think of ( example : Buy wrapping paper out of impulse )

307. I love STRIPES AND CHECKERED STUFF . Such as clothes and accesories .

308. I make up because I want to look better !

309. I mean hello ? I look like this already ..

310. WHEE it's over ~!!

2009-01-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

hey's . i'm tired , sick , fustrated . my headache is killing me .

there's still so much to do and there's so little time . poor time management ? you're right . i always think about so much useless stuff that i spend so little time on my work ? which is much more useful as compared to this ..

i need a break . a long break . i need time to let my brain and heart rest . it's getting accumulated day after day and i feel like it's on the verge of collapsing already . if only life is so easy . when you want to end it all, you just do it . why do we need to stay in the middle of no where ? there ain't much choices after all i guess . no matter where you go .. it's d same .

different destinations ? perhaps not huh ..

day by day it just adds on . how long can i pretend and fake that i don't care and can't be bothered ? how long can my lips remained curled up ? when would i finally get too tired ..

whatiwantdoesntmatterbecauseiwon'tgetit.whatotherswantdoesn'tmattereitherbecauseidon'thave the strengthandpowertofufillorgiveit.whysoinsignificant?thatpowerless.thatweak.thatunimpactful.maybeallthisshouldjustend.ormaybeonedayiwouldwakeupandrealisethatnothinghashappenedbefore.

2009-01-28T21:36:00.001+08:00

how insignificant can a person be .. ? i'm so tired of this .. no longer understands the meaning of life ..

MR PHANG's HOUSE EXPOSED ! :P

2009-01-27T22:57:00.006+08:00

HAAALOS PEOPLE . Having a sorethroat right now . LOL . Random :P

Well . Today woke up at 11am near 12 because I slept at 5am :X LOL . Was watching tv and all ~ Oh well . Hehe :X

Met class peeps at 1.40pm . Okay . In fact it was later because I was late ><" Was telling WeiQin to give me the address . Then in the end, I realised they were still at the mrt . There were more people later than me . And the point is .. they are the basketball team :X LOL . Except for Alvin who came with Melvin . On time together .

Let's see . Reached there, then saw everyone . Bra, Husnain, Ash and muthu were wearing red while the others all were not . WeiQin and I were the only chinese that wore red or should I say colours near to red . They were saying that they feel cheated because they thought they were supposed to . In the end no one were wearing it so they were quite surprised . LOL . Melvin was wearing BLACK which he insisted was navy blue and Alvin was wearing BLACK vest with purple shirt . So it was no where better . I started shooting Melvin saying that he was a bad omen and shouldn't be invited to Mr Phang's house in case he brought bad luck . And the only point was that he took a paper bag that was from metro to carry the oranges . The thing was that it was for christmas . So I started shooting him saying that he was living in the past and stuff :X

Well . Being Melvin, of course he won't just stand there and continue to be shot . He started retorting . Joining forces with Alvin . They are like the EVIL TWINS ! I NEEEEEED XUE ER to help me ! They started to say I'm a hong bao and suff and dragged WeiQin in . Gosh ~ They need help ! Chinese new year ! Wear red ! It's good !

Husnain, RenZhi, Shunyu, Jeannette and Jolene came in sequence after that . I told the others to cheer and clap for them . Ms Huang was so pissed off . LOL . As in she told us she was getting pissed off . She came the earliest and waited for so LONG . She said that she would give us extra homework to do . LOL :X Alvin was like telling them to do 50 pushups and stuff .

Reached Mr Phang's house and Melvin came up with this good idea to prank Mr Phang . So the plan was that he would go to the front door alone and tell Mr Phang that he was the only one that could make it . LOL . Well apparently Mr Phang was too good for us . So the plan didn't work . The kids are sooo cute !

Oh yeah . We played STARE . Which was a great game . WeiQin and me were in a team . So we were supposed to have 20 seconds to look at a picture and memorize it . After that, we ain't supposed to look at it and also answer questions according to the number we've thrown with the dice . If we answer correctly, we would get to move . If we do, we can throw the dice again and answer another question . If you throw the same number, your turn ends . The bad part about both of us is that we KEEEP THROWING THE SAME NUMBER . It's not that we can't remember . Oh well . Luck just weren't on our side . Jolene and Jeannette were in a team . Husnain and Shun . Melvin and Alvin . YangJie and Bra . RenZhi and semi-existant Mr Phang . Jo's and Husnain's group were hilarious . They really have poor memory =X YangJie's and Melvin's groups were SO GOOD . Leading all the way . Gosh . The game is really fun but it takes up a lot of time .

After that played Monopoly . Lord of the rings version . WeiQin and I were snatching for Legolas :X LOL . Jaslyn won as usual x.x She just have this double luck thing . AHH ~

Ibrahim with the phone with Husnain . They love the toys seriously . LOL .

The picture above . Husnain's face . LOL .

Then we went down to play with Mr Phang's daughter, Ashley in the playground .

Jolene who is the "mum" .

Jeannette was the "maid" who kept picking up the ball .

The slackers who kept giving evil suggestions to Ashley asking her to throw the ball at Jolene . LOL .

The mum, the maid and the daughter .

Oh yeah . I don't know what Jolene did to Ashley . Brainwashed her or something . She said that Jolene was pretty while all of us were ugly :X LOL . Well it was Mr Phang who was horrified when we told him and he demanded an answer from Jolene . LOL . As in what she did to his daughter .

After that photo taking session ~

Jolene looking the cutest of all times . LOL . With Jas who is always cute :X LALA ~ Oh yeah . Look at the whiteboard x.x Maybe Mr Phang teaches his kids physics and know what ? He said Ashley is beyond this already . Gosh . LOL .

MAGNETSSSS .

Me and Ashley ~~ xD She's so cute !!

Somehow, Ashley just doesn't want to take photo with Jean and Jo . We tried several attempts .

They still failed . She blocked her own face . LOL ><"

Toilet ~ I love the colour . It's so .. soothing . LOL :X

RED HANDED . JOLENE AND JASLYN DOING WEIRD THINGS IN THE TOILET . OH WAIT . Can't see Jas .

A clearer picture .

Ashley who is obsessed with taking pictures . LOL .

202 .

MingSheng who changed all the formula .

MingSheng and his poor camera taking skills :X

OH GOSH . So many batteries to charge huh ..

We left after that . Ashley was trying to follow us down . LOL . Mr Phang had to lie to her and say that the lift was full so they would take the second one .

Jas and me went to have PastaMania for dinner . Forgot to take pictures of the clams . She was decorating it . LOL .

Went to Mac to study . SORETHROAT ! Gosh ><"

Home sweet home at 10pm plus after several naggings from dad .

2009-01-27T02:04:00.000+08:00

爱上你我总在学会

寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞一个人擦泪

一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜

怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大

天要多黑才能够有你的体贴 ..

HAPPY MOOMOO ~ :DD

2009-01-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

Whee . Still in cousin house . LOL .

Just sang the birthday song for my cousin . The cake is sooo nice ~ First time i say fruit cake nice :P Or should I say it's mango cake . It's so nice .

At first we sang the birthday song once then they say not everyone there so we were supposed to sing again . But the point is that we don't know was .. Just now they took out the candle, then my little cousin too it and lick the part where there is cake already . LOL . Then before she could say anything, they poked it back in . LOL . So she couldn't say in the end :X It's so hilarious can .

Second time we sang it . Then after that there was a problem . There were too many people . How to split the cake ? And the cake is those normal size one . So in the end they split according to families . Total of 5 families . Some had 4 members, some 2 and some five . Which is like everyone one mouth only . All were grumbling for more . LOL . It's really nice .

My dad was dam lame . He said if want the whole cake, then stuff head into it . Then no one dares to share already . You would have the whole cake . LOL . Then in the end he was complaining he eat very little so I told him should have done it right :X

Okay . I did GP homework and econs . Tried maths . Don't feel like doing already . Totally in the holiday mood . This is bad :X LOL . Then it's like SCHOOL REOPEN ! AHH . Gosh .

It's funny when you realise that you're not the only one feeling that way . Discussing about it is weirder . It feels so funny . The way that you're not alone and stuff like that . But in the end, it feels the same huh . Not matter how much people are feeling the same way as you, everyone's story is different . And hence ..

can i learn to hate .. ?

The point is ..

I'm sick of every thing already .

And it's umpteen times I've said this .

I won't ____ ..

And I would it if you dont ____ ..

but let me remind this .. some actions prove a lot about how others think and this is the reason why i read actions and not words

Oh yeah . I heard this song over the radio ! So nice !! :DD

Lara - 下雨天

下雨天了怎么办我好想你

不敢打给你我找不到原因

什么失眠的声音

变得好熟悉

沉默的场景做你的代替

陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷

谁和我一样

等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会

寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞一个人擦泪

一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜

怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大

天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些

彻别接近还能多一些

别说你会难过

别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫

谁和我一样

等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会

寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞一个人擦泪

一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜

怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大

天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些

彻别接近还能多一些

别说你会难过

别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜

怎样的我能让你更想念

雨要多大

天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些

彻别接近还能多一些

别说你会难过

别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

OH YEAH . Request by Jolene ..

PLEASE VOTE FOR THEM !!!

2009-01-26T22:33:00.001+08:00

I love this song lately ..

Taylor Swift - White horse Live Acoustic

So you're sorry
that face of an angel
comes out just when you need it to
and I paced back and forth all this time
because I honestly believed in you
holding on
and days track on
stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
I am not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,
and lost in your eyes
and never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
about you and me
happy endings
now I know
I am not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one to sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Here you are your sitting there
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gna find someone somewhere who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town there in my rearview mirror disappears now
Now its too late for you and your white horse to catch me now
O whoa whoa whoaaa try and catch me noww
Ooh it's too late to catch me now

credits : 6lyrics.com/

2009-01-26T19:01:00.003+08:00

In cousin house right now . Today morning woke up at 12pm ? LOL . Usually we have to wake up really early but my parents said that no matter how they tried to wake me up, I still continued to sleep on further :P I'm such a deep sleeper . LOL .

Went to grandmother house in the morning . Just next block . So yeah . LOL . Ate lots of stuff . Ate my veggies again :D Muahaas :P

Hm .. Reached Uncle's house from Daddy's side at around 5 to 6pm . Was playing BlackJack just now . Gosh . Lost like crazy . LOL . I suck seriously ><" No luck this year . Past few years I've always won . Oh well . My cousins lost like 50 plus bucks . Kinda crazy .

I still have lots of homework not done ! T____T Darn .. And there would be tests when school reopens .

Tomorrow going to Mr Phang's house . Hope it be fun . Okay . Time to do homework . Shall blog again later ~ :D

2009-01-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

whee . Now going to the 5th temple already . Gosh . Just now everyone was talking about iphone . Know why ? Almost everyone has one x.x my bro was sighing and complaining about his phone . But my other cousin said something really true . If you drop your phone, its still okay . If drop iphone, heart pain . And if accidentally the gun bang on to iphone then heart will dam pain . LOL . okay . Time to go down the car .

爱我还是爱你，你选择了自己

2009-01-25T19:46:00.001+08:00

Using handphone to blog right now, went to eat dinner at yio chu kang Sakura just now . Buffet 30bucks each . Total was 400bucks plus . So expensive x.x and the point is i ate not much . Was really full .

Long time since I saw my relatives . They gather every weekend but I don't join them because i have school the next day . That's why my parents are always not at home on sunday afternoons and nights . And I'm just so bored .

My cousins really can eat a lot . LOL . Jiang hui ate like so much chuwamushi (not sure of spelling xP) . She eat from the start till the end x.x And the point is that she is SO THIN . Szeloong was like counting the price of everything he eat . Trying to make sure he ate the correct share . And he's crazy about ice cream . Rootbeer floats, brownie with icecream . LOL . He told me to eat 50nuggets and i would reach 30bucks already . According to Mac's price though.

We also had yusheng . The person helping us was malay so she was trying very hard to say auspicious words every time she add something in . In the end we told her just to say huat all the way . Quite hilarious .

Now in the car going to the next temple . Or should I say the 2nd one . Quite late this year due to the buffet . Bro driving us . All my cousins are of age already so their parents left the driving to them . Blehs . I'm the only one that can't take license yet x.x Oh well .

Oh wait . Did I tell ya that this temple going thing is annual ? Every year we would go to around 10 temples in a row . Quite cool . So it would end around 3 or 4am then after that we would go for supper .

Yeah . Shall blog again later if I'm free (:

I read actions .. not words .

whee ~ :DD

2009-01-24T21:09:00.003+08:00

Yesterday had Chinese New Year celebrations in school . Well .. But we had lessons in the morning so it kind of dampened the mood :P

Went to school early because I didn't finish Mdm Myl's assignment ><" Blehs :l Met Jolene and Shannon in school . Whee . Hotcakes . Yummy ! Saw lots of teachers .

Had PC/CT lesson . Then was .. Physics lecture I think . The first time I was so focused during lectures . LOL . Understood almost everything that Mr Phang taught . Quite happy :P

During computing lesson, I also didn't stone as much as usual :P Was actively taking down notes and stuff . Mr Ho was there confusing us . LOL . Most of us weren't rly in the mood I think . Come on ! Chinese new year is coming already ~ We kept asking for breaks . Even Jennifer was part of it . Shows how much we wanted one . Hehe :P

MingSheng emo-ing in a corner during our computing lesson break . Oh yeah . I saw YangJie eating in the canteen . I was like ahh . I'm so hungry and saw him eat x.x He was there laughing -______- Gosh . Wanted to hit him . LOL .

After that assembled in the hall for Chinese New Year celebrations . The arrangement was quite cool though :P All the classes were allocated with square spaces . LOL . What kind of description was that :X But yeah . Because we were in the middle ! That's the best part :X Whee ~ Then the basketballers were surrounding us ._______. Felt really out of place . But they were really high . LingLan performed ~ xD At first I was kinda sad because normally in AI we would be sure to shout her name . But in YJ, it feels weird . Then I saw JiaWei . I was like asking her to join me xD Whee ~ LingLan heard I guess . LOL .

Band performance was quite cool . First time hearing the symphonic band playing chinese new year songs . They combined some chinese songs together . Mr Sim was playing in it . He was like a kid really happy . LOL . Think he misses the time when he was in school and in band . He was playing the clarinet . And the point is, he was the only one really into the music . Moving to the beats while playing . The others were like statues :X Oh well . But we don't even know if he played it correctly :X

The teachers also sang songs to liven up the mood . Mdm Ang was really hiliarious . She kept asking us to sing along and stuff . Sang "Liang Ai Ping Lv" . Whee ~ Love that song . LOL . Guess I was affected by YiLing . In the past when we go sing K, she will always choose that song and sing it repeatedly . We had to delete it off :X LOL . Oh and Mr Ng's singing was great . Kind of shocked . But it's good ! "Ai Qing Bu Neng Zuo Bi Jiao" . Sad song ~

We also did learnt how to do Chinese Calligraphy . Jane rocks at it ! It's really good . And the thing about Chinese Calligraphy is that the strokes have to be thick to look good .

Our shoes ~~ As in WeiQin's and mine xP

Ibrahim's . LOL . Quite obvious right .

Get it ?

Jolene's name . Last character . Nice right :P Artistic ! She was mad and just anyhow wrote the last character and ta-dah ~ It was better than the first two words :P Hehe . Oh yeah . She told me that she learnt it before . But the place closed down after her first lesson :X Mdm Myl and Mr Phang claimed that it must be because of her . LOL .

WeiQin and me were cheating . We wrote . Then after that we started to colour it :X Until it looks good . LOL . CHEATERS ~ I walked around trying to find people that wrote really nicely . Couldn't find . Saw one in the other class . The others were like handwriting . Gosh . Calligraphy is so difficult ! Those who can do it well have my admiration !

RenZhi . The first one is of course untrue ~ :XX

After that was dance . Dapheny saw that we were really tired so told us to go home early . During practise, Pris was telling me not to be stressed . I'm like " orh okay " . But actually I feel like this every practise but it was the first time she told me that . After that, she told me that I looked really pale . I was like "really ? " ><" First time someone told me that . When I told WenJia about it, she agreed ._____. Even Dapheny said something x.x Because she was demostrating the moves, so she stood beside me . After looking at my face, she said " I have a feeling in chinese new year, all of you are going to eat a lot " . LOL . Yeah . Dance is so tiring . And I think it's shown on my face out loud ><" Kinda sad still . I'm trying my best already . Haix :l Guess I have to try harder . Few more days till we have to accomplish a split !

After dance, went to meet Jas and Cheewee at AMK hub with Shannon . Long time since I saw Jas . Was suan-ing CheeWee all the way . He was having fun suan-ing me back too x.x Was really tired so didn't talk much . Listened to them most of the time . Blehs . They really have a lot of friends . Somehow they would meet their friends unplanned in AMK hub every time . Make me feel like I'm some anti social kid ._____.

PASTA ~ Yummy :DD Carbonara ~ Glad that it was lesser serving that the only dish I ordered when I was with WeiQin . If not history would repeat itself x.x

Jas's . It's good ~

Sha's . He was complaining that it was little . I remembered when WeiQin ordered it in Citylink, it was much more because she was having difficulty finishing it too .

Okay . After that I went home .

Today was a tiring day . Woke up at 11plus . I ate my greens ! Whee ~ I'm a good kid . I ate them for all three meals ! :DD

Went out with mum today . Went to Marina Square and Liang Court . First time I went to Liang court . Liang Court was woww . So many Japanese people :P Made me remember the time when I went to Japan last year . Heh ~ Ate Subway for teabreak . My mum is getting addicted to it >.>" She's insane . LOL .

Bought a new bag ! :DD Lucky there was offer -_____- Was quite reluctant to buy it . Blehs .

Shampoo for the oily scalp ! -______- I'm tired of it . I want to get rid of my oily hair . Blehs . The person was telling me that I was lucky because even though my hair is oily, my face is not . She said usually it is connected . So she was quite surprised . I told her " 'Cos my hair take all le . Face left nothing " . LOL -____-

Oh . This is the "WeiQin" shirt I got from Esprit the other time . Really gave me the WeiQin feeling .

In the end I didn't buy any clothes x.x LOL ><" No idea what to buy . Well . That's all . Gona go off now . Dad nagging that I have not read the newspaper for today . Feeling a little guilty too . Hehe ~

Sharing with ya a song that WeiQin did with me .

Decode (Acoustic Ver. ) - Paramore

I need someone that loves me,

and not someone who likes me

2009-01-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

thanks for breaking my heart and pushing me into hell .

and know what sucks more ? is that i can't do anything about it .

because you got over it so fast just shows that you weren't even in it in the first place .

or maybe "like" and "love" got u all messed up ..

im dumb . worse than dumb .

i know it's not your fault but it's just so unfair ..

all the tears just couldn't wash away the pain .

memories can be washed away but love would never fade .

2009-01-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

it hurts seriously ..

TIREDDDDD ><"

2009-01-22T21:03:00.003+08:00

Before I start, I'm going to post this picture . Well .. Someone is going to kill me but I don't care :X So yeah . It's been in my phone for so long so I guess it belongs to a blog post . Well . Try to figure out what it says . If you can't, then I shall reveal it one day . LOL . If no one guess it I mean .

Now let's continue ! Been such a SLACKER . Didn't blog much . Wasn't in a good mood at all I guess . Oh wait . Before I forget, everyone PLEASE go to this website and support YJC ! :P

They have put in a lot of effort . Lego and stuff . Please help to vote !! Thanks :DD C9 ~ Don't forget ! :P You have three votes . So the others, choose any other videos that you like . Thanks once again ! :DD

Yesterday, was a TIRING day . From morning till night, I thought I was going to die . Lucky that I survived .

School started with a maths lecture . Mr Wen and his jokes . Well apparently it was a lamer joke than before . The joke was " Why did the two vectors start a internet company ? " . I think it's like this . Can't remember the exact phrasing . The answer was " because they had a good dot product" . Okay . People who have learnt vectors would understand and those that haven't, you're lucky . Because you would die of lameness . LOL x____x Mr Wen imagined himself to be David Copperfield . Those that was late, he started to have handsigns and stuff . He's insane . LOL .

After that was comp . Boring ~

Then was PE . 2.4km . Gosh . Actually it wasn't 2.4km because we ran the first round as warm up . Then we did stretches and ran 5 more rounds . Timed myself . 5 rounds were around 12minutes . Darn . I need to try harder if I want to secure an A for running ! My goal is Napfa GOLD !!! It's the last year for napfa already and it be good to end it with a gold ~ xP Hehe ~ First time I ran past Jeannette too :X Lost to her last year napfa by 20 seconds I think ): But this time I won was because she was aching T____T Oh well . TRY HARDER !!!

Break was like THANK GOD . Ate my chicken grains and drank orange juice . Okay . Not chicken grains but they really look like it . LOL . It's cereal :P Well no one liked it apparently . I think it tastes good though . Jeannette and Jolene didn't like it ><" Blehs .

Maths tutorial and GP was hell . Tried to stop myself from sleeping or something like that . Couldn't focus at all . I was really in a "stop and stare" mood .

After that had dance self practise . Did lots of stretches . 10 more days till end of JAN . Kyung kept shouting that throughout the practise -_____- Guess he's stressed too . Well . Almost everyone is except those who can do a perfect split already . The entire practise were full of people shouting in pain because of the aches . LOL . Quite hilarious but everyone was trying hard . Learnt the dance steps from WenJia . The entire dance is starting to form up and it's really good . Dance ended around 7 plus .

Waited for WeiQin's choir to end then we went to SSC with Melvin to have dinner . Subway ~ The environment there is GREAT . Far away from the crowd . And it feels really nice (: So we ate dinner in peace . AS IF I COULD with Melvin shooting me every second . LOL . When we walked to the bus interchange to take bus there, there was this stall selling baby clothes . And he kept saying that I can't fit in and stuff . I was like retorting " DADDY . LET'S BUY CLOTHES FOR MY TEDDY BEARS AT HOME " . He shot back by saying that the teddy bears can't fit in too because since I'm so big sized, the teddies have to big enough for me to hug it . When we board the bus, WeiQin and me sat together while Melvin sat at the front . Nobody sat with him throughout the journey so I told him that everyone dislikes him . He questioned that the fault might lie with me . ROFL . Then there was this part when there was a girl that lost balance and he reached out his hand wanting to help her . I used the chance and shot him that he just wanted to touch the girl . He was like " So this is what you get for being good la " . I was like LALALA ~ And it really got him . As in IT WORKED . I guess I would start suan-ing him from this direction :X

When buying our food in Subway, I kept thinking if WeiQin and I should have a meal because I wanted to lose weight till Chinese New Year comes :X Then I saw this label at the cookies " One won't hurt " . Was laughing at it like crazy then Melvin joined in -______- Shouldn't have fed him with something to laugh at me . LOL .

Oh yeah . Melvin sat beside a pile of bags . He wanted to stack up the bags no matter what . He's crazy . LOL . And so the sheep keychain on WeiQin's bag accompanied him .

*SLURRRPS*

After that we walked home from SSC . It was quite near after all . There were light breezes and it wasn't really noisy . So it was quite relaxing :D Melvin was playing the MIDI file of the guitar SYF pieces . Not bad . Oh yeah . WeiQin thought of a real good idea to celebrate Teacher's day . Shall not blog about it till WeiQin decided to .

Today was quite okay I guess . But was really tired because I slept around 12am plus . Was trying to finish homework but I guess it's impossible . And so I have to arrive in school tomorrow morning EARLY because it was my punishment . Blehs . The half an hour break today was hard-earned . And yeah . I've decided that I would NEVER wear my pink jacket during lectures ANYMORE because it's way too dangerous . LOL . Should have sticked to my black one last time x_______x Physics lecture was horrible . Oh well . I couldn't do the test at all . Darn . My physics really suck . The first part was easy but I couldn't do it at all ... Haix ..

GP was quite okay today . Lot's of laughter and all . Had extra physics tutorial after the entire day . XueEr made an appearance and shocked most of us . Been so long since we saw her . Hahas .

Went for dance after that . Today's practise was quite okay . Was telling myself that I have to relax and enjoy all of it . And I guess when I started to relax, everything came on to me easier . WenJia said I catched up real fast now . Guess I'm starting to get used to it . Better than last time by a little . The whole dance is starting to get together and the feel to it is great . Everyone loves it including me ! Hope that we do a great job :D

Okay . Time to do homework . Bye people xDD

Oh . And this song . I kept singing it in class . WeiQin was singing along with me . But the point is .. WE ONLY KNOW ONE SENTENCE . LOL ..

" You're pushing and pulling me down to you .. "

It's so weird how you can make me smile so easily . I'm kinda fustrated and glad over that fact .

exhausted totally .. brain and body

2009-01-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired right now . Suddenly I've been thinking .. Am I really suited for all these . What am I even doing ? Fruitful life .. Doesn't seem so though . Yet every night I'm sleeping so late just to clear this never ending pile of homework . It seems like I would never complete them anyways . Is this part of growing up ? In the past, I would never have to worry about these things . Doing homework would never be on my mind . And yet now, I'm sacrificing my sleep time for it . And it seems stupid . Not only this but my CCA is taking too much of my time that I can't even stay focused during lessons and the homework that teachers give .. I just can't seem to finish them . I wonder how my friends do it . Does this mean I'm not suited for this ? Have I made the wrong choice ?

perplexity

2009-01-20T20:40:00.003+08:00

Life is full of choices and I have no idea which to make . "Choose one and sacrifice the other" they say . And yet who would want to bear the consquence of not making the other choice ? And perhaps when we had made the choice would we then regret that we have taken that route ? Sometimes I get so puzzled in life, making myself rooted deep in a dilemma . Which are the correct choices ? Which are the ones to make ? Which are those that won't make you regret or those that make you even a better person you yearn to be ?

They say " Follow your heart and you can never be wrong " . But have they ever wondered, what if you have no idea what your heart wants ? And perhaps sometimes I ponder that maybe they don't even practise what they preach . The heart is the core of our soul . The source of everything . Without a heart, you're nothing except a living corpse that deems to be forgotten and also non-existent in this life . Yet with a heart, does it make you any different ? With all these choices to make in life, would a heart actually help you make the right choices ?

The world is full of wonders . Even the wisest old man cannot comprehend his life, talk about the world . Choices that impacts their life . Even choices that are minor might make a huge difference in the end . Choices that seem common like the option to go a place after school or what to eat during lunch . Every choice that we make affects our life and we cannot rewind the time . We can't undo the past nor can we predict the future .

And the point is, we can't even comprehend the present . We can't depend on the people around us to help us make decisions because it's your own life . No matter what choice you make, it might at most only affect their life a little . Even if you suffer or enjoy the benefits after making that choice, they are not that much involved as yourself . At this point you wonder if those around you really cares ? Because whatever happens to you, it actually doesn't affect them at all .

How do you be someone that others want you to be ? How do you be someone that you yearn to be ? How do you be someone that you really are ? Most importantly, how do you know who you really are .. ?